Deauni James
Kj and I were around each other every day damn near. Acting like a couple, I wasn't sure if we were because we didn't put a label on it. This past week has brought us closer though and I enjoyed it. He even made me and Nani cordial for the sake of Kiara. I admired him for that because he was very forgiving and always tried to keep the peace. With all that good going on it was still some bullshit I had to deal with. I had to file a court motion against Dc. He had took Dallas and kept me in the dark so I had to act legally. We both filed for full custody but the judge ended up giving us 50/50 joint custody. I wasn't mad but I wasn't too happy. I would see him every other week and that kind of bothered me. He was too young to be juggling back and forth between the two of us.
So far things between us sharing custody was going pretty good. We barely said more than 10 words to each other. We just handed over Dallas, his stuff and his car seat. I hated that it had to come down to this but he forced my hand. Things were going good before all of this legal drama. Like I mentioned before I never wanted to have this type of relationship with my children fathers. It was too late though and plus Dc and I were in too deep with each other. The way we used to be with each other when it was his senior year was hella toxic. Very off and on and up and down. I didn't know if it was love or hate or if we were that thin line that everyone claimed that was in between the two.
Aside from that drama and stress. I still had to make a living for my children. Working my ass off was exhausting and it got difficult at times. Everyday I wanted to give up but I had to remember who I was and who I was doing it for. Luckily I had Kj more in my corner than before, I was loving how our relationship improved. Today I was working the morning shift, I was excited because I was going to spend quality time with Kj and Kiara. It was Dc's week so it was no Dallas. Although it's been awhile since this arrangement I still couldn't get used to him not being around.
After my long, hardworking and boring shift I finally got to go home. Usually I would try to get some sleep but today was different. I showered and got ready to hang out with my favorite girl and the boy I loved the most. Once I put my shoes on, I made my way outside into Kj' car. He had been watching Kiara for the whole day and came to pick me up.
"Hey babes, hey my ladybug. What y'all did today?" I asked him when I got in the car
"Not shit, she just played in her playpen for real" he responded
"Is her poop still runny?" I questioned
"Nah, she back to solid shit. Still funky as ever" he chuckled and said
"She get it from you" I laughed
"Bullshit, that's all you baby" he joked
We joked around for a little while longer until we reached our destination. We had went to the park for a picnic since it was such a beautiful day outside. The flowers were blossoming, the wind was blowing and the lake was glowing.
"So when we gon address the elephant in the room?" I asked Kj out the blue
I needed some answers. We've been cuddling, kissing and having sex like a normal couple but still didn't address the situation. It was very comfortable but I needed some answers now. I wasn't going to allow myself to play house with my baby daddy without discussing a real relationship title. The way shit blew over with Dc was unacceptable, I think about that night all the time.
"What elephant? Deauni what you hollering about?" He asked me
"Kj what we doing? We together? We not? Like I'm confused" I pressed
"Bruh we coparenting for our daughter"
"Coparents don't do what we do, don't be dumb" I said annoyed because now he was being stupid
"Bruh I don't know what you want me to say. I love you, yes I do but I can't trust you. After everything you put me through I can't allow that shit to repeat. I been taking the safe way out I'm not gon cap but we can't be in a relationship until I trust you again" he fessed
"I understand, it's my fault. I made you not trust me now we're in a awkward place."
I didn't have much to say after he said that. It was completely understandable why he would feel that way. I dug my own grave now I had to lay in it. We enjoyed the rest of the day but once the sun went down we wrapped it up.
"Can you stop by Walmart? Kiara needs formula" I asked him once we got in the car
"Yeah anything for my baby K"
We headed to Walmart and I decided to just go inside because Kj always had a hard time finding stuff in the baby aisle.
