One month later...
May Jackson
"Your call has been forwarded to a automated voicemail system, please leave a message after the beep" this was my 3rd time calling Alex. He just ghosted me out of nowhere. I couldn't catch him on the campsite either. It was like he was avoiding me but for what? I was confused.
This was exactly what I was talking about, as soon as I let my guard down I get played like a damn piano. For what though? I hadn't done anything to this man. Everything was just gravy last month and now all of a sudden I'm getting sent to voicemail? Shit was ridiculous as fuck. I hated niggas for this exact reason.
After we went on that date at the diner. Things between him and I got intense. We started seeing each other more and we even got intimate. We were serious well at least that's what I thought but that's what he made me think. He didn't want me talking to other guys and he's made it clear on multiple occasions that he only wanted me. He just had a hard time committing, I should known it was bullshit when that happened but I gave him a fair chance.
This really angered me because I could've kept up my arrangement with the therapist. Alex had my head gone though and I didn't know how he managed to do so. You never knew how they got you though. You just knew that they had you and that you were stuck on them.
I tried calling him again but he didn't answer so I eventually gave up. I was trying my best to fight back the tears but it was hard because why me? I could never find someone for me. Something always had to happen. My love life was truly fucked up and it was nothing I could do about it.
I was going to just focus on me. School was starting next month and I had to just focus on my academics. Boys were distractions anyways, I didn't need that. I wanted to be in love with my school work so when I started my career I'll eventually meet the love of my life. This trial and error was killing me and I could no longer take it.
As the night came to a night I just laid there and just thought about what went wrong between Alex and I. I couldn't come up with anything. I thought about going by his cabin but that seemed a bit too desperate for my taste and that wasn't my style. I'm pretty sure he had it all figured out, I was just blind to it. Whatever the reason was, I hope it was worth wasting my time.
I eventually fell into a deep slumber. That's until I felt somebody covering my mouth with a rag. For a moment I thought I was dreaming but then I realized it was really happening. Before I could see who it was, I instantly knocked out. That's when everything turned pitch black dark.
Deauni James
"Don't cry Dee, this was the right decision." She said
"But mom...he said he loved me. He said he wanted me to keep it. Then all of a sudden he just stopped picking up my calls and stopped answering my texts. Is it me? Am I cursed? Why do I have such bad taste in men?" I cried out to her
She just comforted me because I guess she was lost for words.
We were at the abortion clinic. I had gotten pregnant with baby number three by Jalen. Last month was peachy as fuck. We went from texting everyday to seeing each other and going on dates to having sex raw. When I told him I was pregnant he was all for it but then randomly he stopped calling and texting me. Crazy how all of that can happen in such a small time frame but we were certain. So I thought, he made me believe like I was the one for him.
All of it was bullshit though because I was now sitting in a abortion clinic crying my eyes out. I didn't want another baby but I didn't want to kill it either. All babies deserved to live but then again my budget couldn't afford another one. I wasn't crying for just that though, I was hurt because Jalen left me high and fucking dry.
