Nani Owens
This past week has been very stressful for me. I been working my ass off nonstop and it was getting to me. I was exhausted. Sexually frustrated. All of the above. Jaylin has been distance lately and I didn't know the reason why. I tried to give him space because with boys you never know what they have going on privately or silently. I pressed him to talk to me sometimes but he just told me he didn't want to talk or it was nothing wrong. I knew it was bullshit but I shook it off.
Today he was suppose to pick me up from work and I was excited because I wanted to see him. The last time we saw each other in person was when we went out. For the past week it's been phone calls and mostly text messages. It was strange and unusual but like I said I was trying to give him space. When my shift ended I quickly made my way to the back room to get my stuff. I was eager to get the hell out the door because I was going to see my boyfriend and plus I was tired. I've been working the morning shift lately thanks to Tre. Things between him and I have been awkward but good. He would flirt with me and I was left in a uncomfortable situation. Don't get me wrong he was very sweet and nice to me but I had a boyfriend so I couldn't tap in.
Aside from the tension between us everything has been going good with my job. I liked everything about it I just didn't like waking up early. When Jaylin finally pulled up I hopped in the car excited to see him. I hugged him and kissed him instantly but it was different. When I kissed him he didn't use any tongue so I was confused because he usually does.
"What's wrong baby? You wanna talk about it?" I asked him out of concern
"It's nothing." He didn't even look my way.
He just pulled off and we made our way to my house.
We rode in silence and I just wanted to open the door and get out while the car was still rolling. I didn't know what was wrong with him. He was probably sexually frustrated too but how would I even know? He didn't want to talk to me. When we got to my house, I got out immediately. Jaylin was about to piss me off with his sassy ass attitude but I wanted to stay patient. He was acting like this at the wrong time because we had nothing but space and opportunity. I had a open house so we could make however much noise we wanted. But we wasn't going to be making no noise if he kept acting like a brat.
We went upstairs, I took a shower while he laid on my bed scrolling on his phone. I was over the nonchalant attitude at this point. I was just hoping sex would put him in a better mood. When I came out the shower I just put on deodorant and walked over to him. So he could just drop my towel and get down to business. I straddled him and we started to kiss and he was still peaking me but I didn't care because I was ready to get things started. I started to kiss his neck for awhile but then he pushed me away.
"What is it Jaylin? Why you been acting so weird?" I asked him out of frustration
"I gotta tell you something" he responded
"Tell me what? This better be an explanation on why you been acting so distant lately. Like I don't understand we're suppose to be to-"
"Robin kissed me" he said cutting me off
In that moment I didn't know what to say or what to think. His words shocked me and left me in disbelief.
"WHAT?!?" I yelled
"Baby it didn't mean anything! She was having a vulnerable moment and she kissed me" he tried to explain
"A VULNERABLE MOMENT? Nigga what!? You gotta be joking right now! If she kissed you why the fuck have you been distant from me? YOU BEEN DISTANT FROM ME LIKE IM THE ONE WHO CHEATED ON YOU!" While we were arguing I was putting on some clothes because he didn't deserve to see me naked or in a towel.
"BABY LISTEN! ROBIN GOT RAPED AT THE PARTY AND SHE NEEDED A SHOULDER TO CRY ON. THE KISS WAS A MISTAKE!"
"I'm sorry that happened to her, I really am but HOW THE FUCK DO YOU LET YOUR SO CALLED BESTIE KISS YOU!? I TRUSTED YOU JAYLIN! YOU NEVER CHEATED ON ME SO WHY NOW? PLUS IT WAS WITH SOMEBODY I PRESSED YOU ABOUT! HOW FUCKING IRONIC!" I started to push on him because I was just so filled with anger and hurt.
My emotions were all over the place, I didn't know what to do or what to think. I just knew I was hurt. It pained me to know that he did this to me, right after we got into an argument about him not telling me about her. I knew I had the right to feel some type of way about the situation.
