An Unfinished Painting

28- The new job

   I started working at my families company, temporally filling in for the CEO, which is my brother. I have to wear the same attire I wore while working as a professor, a button up shirt with dress pants and a coat. I usually arrived around nine or ten, even though mostly everyone got there around seven.

"Good Morning Augie." The secretary, Emma, has a desk right in front of my brother's office doors. She usually wears a short dress or skirt, probably for my perverted brother. She keeps her long blonde hair down and always has red or pink lipstick on. Right when I walk into the office, she follows behind, telling me what is on the agenda for today.

It is only my third day working here, I started coming home late to find May either asleep on the bed or the living room couch. We have not had sex since the morning she told me she did not want a relationship with me, which was less than a week ago. And last night she did not come home and texted me she was spending the night at someone's house.

I leaned on the desk looking at Emma as she was telling me what meeting I had today, "Emma" She looked up from the folder she was holding, "Did you and my brother fuck on this desk." I sat on top of my brother's desk, "Or on that couch over there?"

"Uh-" She looked around then back at me with a worried look on her face.

"Have you ever been with a girl Emma?" She nodded her head yes which made me smile a little, "Oh? I never would have took you for someone who would be interested in women, but I guess I shouldn't prejudge someone." I stood up and walked over to her, "I'm not really in a good mood today, you see." I tucked her blonde hair behind her ears and leaned into her, after walking over to the couch that was to the side of the desk, and sat down.

"Did you want me to get you anything?" Emma asked as she stood in the same place.

"No." I leaned back on the couch and looked at Emma's short black dress that she was wearing, "I'm not my brother you know, so if you don't want to give me the wrong idea, I suggest you wear something else until he gets back."

I closed my eyes, "If you want, I used to take care of your brother when he was not having a good day, I could do the same for you."

I opened my eyes to see Emma standing in front of me, "Is this a porno or something?" I looked around the room then laughed and covered my eyes with my hand, contemplating how shitty of a person I wanted to be."Lock the door" I said as I unbuttoned my pants.

I do not know why I was doing this, if it was to get back at May for not coming home last night or if I just was intentionally trying to ruin my life by doing shitty things. But the moment Emma got on her knees in front of me and pulled down my pants, my mind went blank. It was not that I particularly enjoyed her getting me off, her slutty attitude pissed me off to begin with. But no wonder Sage kept her as a secretary, she was good at using her tongue. She even got me to moan a few times when she used her finger and tongue at the same time. I received a phone call from May while Emma was down on me. Holding the top of the secretary's head with one hand and holding my phone up to my ear with the other. Which excited me even more, also confirming how much of a fucked up person I really was.

"Augie?" May said to me over the phone.

"I'm busy right now, I'm at my families company."

"I know, I'm in front of your secretary's desk but no one is here. Where is your office?"

"Give me a minute." Hanging up the phone right after saying this, I pushed my secretaries head back, "Emma." When she looked up at me, I pulled her up to me and kissed her wet lips, "So lewd." Our tongues touched for a moment, then I sat up, pulling my pants back up, "We can finish this later." I said while I walked up to the door.

"Augie." I turned back, "What happened to your leg?" She quietly asked.

I smiled, "I got into a car crash a while ago." My fake smile disappeared, "Lower your dress." I opened the door to see May holding two cups of coffee while talking to an employer on the other side of the room.

May was wearing white pants with a black shirt, she walked up to me and looked down at my pants, "You should probably tuck your shirt back in and button up your pants." She looked back up at me and smiled, watching Emma walk out of my office.

"Let's talk in my office." I turned around and tucked my shirt back in while buttoning up my pants.

"I didn't think the whole secretary fucking the boss thing was something people actually did, I've only seen it in those porn films."

"May." I leaned on the desk, "Why are you here?"

She smiled, "Well, I brought coffee for you, I was trying to be nice but looks like there is already someone here to satisfy you enough."

"Thanks for the coffee, did you want to grab lunch? I'm free until this afternoon." I grabbed my coat that was on my desk chair, and we both headed down stairs for lunch. About a block down from the company was a restaurant my brother and I usually went to while he was working, a small Korean Barbecue restaurant.

"How was last night?" I asked May as we both sat down across from each other at the restaurant table.

"I went out drinking with a few college friends, it was fun." May smiled, "So how was the secretary?"

"You're the one who said she didn't want to be together."

"You didn't even put up a fight, you just agreed with me as if you didn't care." May frowned, "And you're already fucking your brother's secretary, why? To get back at me? When I did nothing wrong?" May started to raise her voice as tears ran down her face, "When I saw you with Daisy that day, you looked so in love. I don't think you have ever looked at me that way. I just want you to love me." May wiped the tears from her face.

"You want be happy with me." I sat up from the table, "I'm not a good person May, even when it came to Daisy, my intentions were never pure. I can't let you stay by my side when I can't even treat you right." I stood up from the chair, "I want you to still live with me but for now on, stay in the bedroom across the hall from your art room."

I stood up and headed straight home after that, I threw myself into this mess, I have no right to be happy in the end.

I purposely am drowning myself, I am not sinking to the bottom of the ocean anymore, I am swimming there.