Light // Severus Snape // (2.1)

Hope

Lula sat in the shower how water pouring down on her crying. Water mixing with tears.

'Lula?' Severus questioned from outside the door. He only heard sobs in response. 'Lula?' He cracked the door open. 'Lula... is there anything i can do?'

'How could so much change? Yesterday everything... yesterday it was just yesterday for me!' Lula cried out. Severus came in keeping his eyes down. 'Severus how could everything turn out so wrong? So evil?'

'You were gone. You were gone lula. We were lost without you.' Severus told her sitting down outside the shower she looked over to him. Arms still curled up around herself knees tucked into her chest.

'Maybe it would have been better if i died that day. Then i wouldnt have to see what he became. What he did... in my name!'

'No, never think that.' Severus said reaching a hand out to her and the boiled at his skin but she reached for him. Hugging him tight.

'Up is down and down is left' lula told him. 'Everything was so great yesterday. I cant wrap my head around it. I cant fathom it!'

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'Hope is more frightening than death. Death is supposed to be final. A clear end. Hope that you would come back hope that i could see you again im this life.... Lula.'

'Hope is a double edged sword. Ready to strike at any moment. Im glad you kept hope, severus.' Lula told him.

'Without it... what else would I have? Without you I felt like I had nothing. I had nothing,' he corrected. 'Its always been you lula. Always.'

'Severus?'

'I have loved you since that first day i met you. I was scared and you were sweet and you took me under your wing. Made me your family. I have loved you for the past 21 years.'

'That sounds funny,' lula told him. 'Im only 24.'

'25' he told her.

'I think i know how old i am, or how old I'm supposed to be.' lula reminded him but perhaps she didnt.

'We didnt put you under the timeless spell right away. We waited a while trying to let your wound heal and hoping we could wake you. Youre 25.'

'Oh. Happy birthday to me. I think i need chocolate to celebrate.' Lula told him. Even in madness she still found a way to smile. How could dumbeldor see darkness in her when she shone brighter than anyone? She laughed louder and smiled wider, she shone brighter. She was watching him though. He didnt know what to say or to say nothing at all perhaps. He bared his soul and what she took from it was that she would have been 3 or four when he fell in love with her.

'I do love you sevy.'

'Not how i love you,' he said softly looking to his feet.

'No,' she confirmed slowly walking to him. 'But that doesnt mean feeling wont grow and change over time.' She grabbed his chin between her fingers making him look at her. 'Can you give me some more time to figure out.. everything?' She chuckled 'before anymore declarations of love?'

'I think i can do that.' He confirmed. 'But no promises.'

'Alright...' she leaned up on her toes and kissed his cheek. Feelings did grow. The way her heart beat for tom ceased and she felt safe and happy and loved with severus.

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