Snow Phoenix

5. I'm Xiao Zhan

In Spring Cottage:
Author's POV:
The third consort woke up the next day. He was sweating terribly, but he knew one thing for sure; even if it was his (Smit's) soul, the body belonged to Xiao Zhan. As for why he is sweating so much, he saw a few glimpses of his (Zhan's) life. He felt hurt like; he had faced all that torture. He has no idea where Zhan's soul is now; he doesn't know how to bring him back. He felt helpless; why on earth did he ( Zhan) feel attracted toward someone like that bastard emperor Wang Yibo. After knowing what he did to Xiao Zhan and that pure, little, innocent soul. He felt guilty. His memories are still blurred, but he knows how to get that back. It's Zhan's body, so his brain must store all the memories. All he needs to do is, trigger his brain. But there are chances that Smit might forget his original memories. So Smit decided to write down all the precious memories and information from his past life. He spent his whole day writing. Smit even missed his breakfast and lunch. And now he's starving; he was so concentrated on writing that he ignored Yubin and his new servant a-qing. And when Wang Yibo asked them about his consort, they told him that he had not eaten since morning. Yibo came to meet his consort with food.
Smit has already decided; that he'll live this life as Xiao Zhan. And teach a lesson to everyone who was bullying Zhan. When Yibo came to meet him with food, his blood boiled. Anyone can see hatred for Yibo in his eyes. That was something new for all of them. Yubin and a-qing never imagined that, their innocent, loving master who never holds any grudges giving a death glare to THE EMPEROR!!! Yibo was as shocked as them, 'Maybe he regained his memories...' was the only thought that came to his mind.
Zhan's POV:
(Smit has accepted to live as Zhan. Hence I'll only mention him as Zhan hereafter.)
When I saw that bastard again, I was about to lose my mind and punch him then and there. But if I hit him now, he'll kill me right away. And I can't die yet; I still have to deal with others, then I'll show this bloody emperor who I am!!! But the memories I have now are still incomplete; I can't blame anyone now. But soon, I'll regain all the memories and end this game once and for all.

Author's POV:

Zhan was staring at Yibo with an unreadable expression. Yibo felt sad for some reason, but he ignored those thoughts.
"Why didn't you eat anything for the whole day? You haven't completely recovered yet. Don't do that again. Here, eat these dishes; they are healthy for you." Maids kept various dishes in front of Zhan, but most dishes were non-vegetarian. Even though he's leaving as Zhan now, he can't change his diet suddenly. He again looked at Wang Yibo, bowed with respect, and said, "I'm sorry, your Majesty, but I can't eat those dishes. My injuries are not healing yet, and they were deeper this time. I can't eat meat, rice, and spicy or oily food."
"What!!! If you can't eat all this, what will you eat? You have to eat something, tell me what you want to eat. I will arrange everything here."
"You don't have to, your Majesty. Yubin must have collected fresh fruits for me. I'll eat those; you must be tired. You can go to your palace and rest now. Goodnight, your Majesty"
Yibo's POV:
Why??? Why does it hurt so much??? I didn't feel this kind of pain before! Then why now???
When a-qing said he didn't eat anything the whole day, why did I ask the maids to prepare the meal for him?
Why did I feel hurt when he looked at me with hatred?
Why do I feel like crying when he called me Majesty and not xiānsheng (husband)?

I had never seen his face before, but whenever he looked at me (not even face, maybe at chest level), I saw only love in his eyes. That was the reason I asked him to keep his eyes lowered. How can anyone hurt those eyes filled with love? But no matter what I did, I never saw his hatred for me. He always called me xiānsheng with his soft, lovely voice. Yes! Soft voice, eyes filled with love, I knew everything. But I never accepted that before, but I can't ignore that now... I don't want to. I miss all that. Is it too late now?

"Qīzi... d...did you regain your memories?"
Zhan's POV:
Did he just call me Q...qīzi??? WTH!!!
I can see that Yubin and a-qing are equally shocked. He never acknowledged Zhan as his consort before, then why is he calling me his wife now? His voice was softer than ever, which can melt your anger like ice cream. 'No Zhan... Yes, it's Zhan now!!! You are Zhan; Now stay strong. Don't think about anything else.'
"Your majesty, I want to rest now. Please excuse me."
and he left without saying anything...