Redcrackle Oneshots

Too good for me

I just heard the song the heart wants what it wants again after a long time and it just reminded me about Gray and Carmen . So I thought of doing a story about it . Here it is :-

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You got me sippin' on something
I can't compare to nothing
I've ever known, I'm hoping
That after this fever I'll survive
I know I'm acting a bit crazy
Strung out, a little bit hazy
Hand over heart, I'm praying
That I'm gonna make it out alive

Gray couldn't explain his feeling for Carmen sometimes . Every time he thinks of her his heart beats faster , his eyes widen , all he could think about was how it would be with her back in his life .

The bed's getting cold and you're not here
The future that we hold is so unclear
But I'm not alive until you call
And I'll bet the odds against it all

But even if he wanted her back , he could never have her . It's too complicated . He can't complicated her life even more especially when she's enjoying it . A life without him . But he still wants her . He wants to be with that gorgeous woman again .

Save your advice 'cause I won't hear
You might be right, but I don't care

There's a million reasons why I should give you up

But it's very clear that Carmen doesn't deserve him . She definitely deserves someone better than him . Someone more handsome , someone better , someone who would never hurt her or anyone . He has to give her up because he loves her .

 But the heart wants what it wants

The heart wants what it wantsYou got me scattered in pieces
Shining like stars and screaming
Lighting me up like Venus
But then you disappear and make me wait

Gray really wants to see her one last chance but she would just disappear again . She only becomes a memory in his life . A beautiful memory that Gray will think about every single day .

And every second's like torture
Heroin drip, no more so
Finding a way to let go
Baby, baby, no, I can't escape

Gray tried ways to get her out of his mind . He tried to date other woman but non of them are as pretty , smart , kind and hot as her . His thoughts about her were fixed in his mind .

The bed's getting cold and you're not here
The future that we hold is so unclear
But I'm not alive until you call
And I'll bet the odds against it all
Save your advice 'cause I won't hear
You might be right, but I don't care
There's a million reasons why I should give you up

Every single day he reminds himself there are better people than him . He imagines Carmen with another guy , happier than she was with him .

But the heart wants what it wants
The heart wants what it wants
The heart wants what it wants
The heart wants what it wantsThis is a modern fairy tale
No happy endings
No wind in our sails
But I can't imagine a life without
Breathless moments
Breaking me down, down, down, down

He knew he can never be happy again . Never without her in his life . But he cannot live like this . Not knowing if Carmen wants to be with him or not . Confusion filled his mind . A thought occurred to him , that never occurred before .

The bed's getting cold and you're not here
The future that we hold is so unclear
But I'm not alive until you call
And I'll bet the odds against it all
Save your advice 'cause I won't hear
You might be right, but I don't care
There's a million reasons why I should give you up 

Gray reminded himself that he's not good enough for her , that he did not deserve someone as amazing as her . But it doesn't matter . Not anymore .

But the heart wants what it wants
The heart wants what it wants
The heart wants what it wants
The heart wants what it wantsThe heart wants what it wants, baby
It wants what it wants, baby
It wants what it wants
It wants what it wants

He couldn't help it . He needs to see her . He needs to talk to her . He's gonna go and meet her one last time , and talk to her , wrap her up in his arms and confess his feelings to her .

The heart wants what it wants, baby
It wants what it wants