Forgotten

Chapter 14

(Faith pov)

July-8th-2018
Faith's apartment📍

Faith: "Just let me live my life please!!!" I yell punching the wall. "I'm sorry!!!" I cry & fall against the wall.

It's been 3 years since it all happened, I've managed to keep it under control. It's always this month the month it all happened where I can't hold in anymore.

Faith: "It should've been me driving not you!!" I cry in agony.

Flashback, glimpse of that moment flood back like a nightmare. A never ending loop that I can't escape, the more I hold on the more restless I get.

Faith's thoughts: "I'm not that strong girl I let you believe." I hug my knees & grip on my necklace.

Hiding in myself, looking around my room helpless, scared, & guilty, all alone.

~Flashback~

Niko: "Just cause you're older than me doesn't mean you're right."

Faith: "Technically it does & I have all the say." I chuckle.

Niko: "Well technically eso es todo una mentira, seriously you can barely get out of bed in the morning or let alone get an actual job."

That was a lie I can get out of bed & music is a job. Ya it may not pay a lot right now but eventually then Ariana will notice me again.

Faith: "It'll all work out in the end just watch!!"

Niko: "This about Ariana isn't it, I say forget about her it's been a year people grow apart trust me." 

I didn't want to trust any of that, anything can happen. I know it was hard on me when she left but she's following her dreams. She made it & I'm proud of her.

Faith: "I can't be alright even if she forgot about me doesn't mean I should do the same to her, we've been best friends since middle school."

Niko: "Don't come back crying cause I told you so." He smirks.

Faith: "Ohh shut up." I nudged him.

~Flashback ended~

That was one of the last conversations I had with him. If I wasn't so determined, if I wasn't clouded with the idea of meeting Ariana he would still be here.

Faith's thoughts: "I don't blame you Ari, I blame myself."

~Messages~

Ding*
Ding*
Ding*

My phone started to vibrate & I slid it away from me.

It continued to vibrate & I wasn't going to deal with this bullshit. I grab the phone & throw hard as I can into the wall breaking the screen.

Faith: "Leave me alone!!! Just leave me…alone…I just want to be alone!!" I fell back against the wall crying.

I look over at my bed hiding in my knees & hoodie.

Faith: "What you looking at." I see my Pikachu Stuffie. "I'm not okay."

I grab Pikachu & hug him tight, & cry letting my tears soak into him. 

An hour later I'm able to calm myself down but I'm a mess not just on the outside but on the inside too.

Not long after I hear a knock at the door, I wipe my tears & myself presentable.