Forgotten

Chapter 58

(Faith pov)

April-28th-2019
Boca Florida Hospital📍

I was glad everything was okay, my Abuelita was going to be fine. What had me nervous was the results of the test they did after that she was free to go home.

Faith's thoughts: "I'm a complete fucking mess right now." I sigh.

Maricel: "Mi hija?"

Faith: "Not right now mom please, tengo muchas cosas que están pasando…if it's not about Abuelita I don't care okay." I get my crutches & walk away.

Maricel: "Estás bien?"

I stopped in disbelief at what she was asking me if I'm okay? None of this was okay, everything is catching up to me. I don't know what I'm doing with my life, I want to be the best girlfriend & show Ariana I can be what she wants me to be. I'm nowhere near that, & that car incident brought back bad memories of my brother, the stupid nightmares. My injuries & now Abuelita.

I want to tell her just so she can understand but she won't. God I'm lost in my thoughts & it's slowly killing me inside trying to be the best me for everyone.

Faith: "Parece que estoy bien? Really look at me, Tu mamá no actúa como si te importara?  Nunca lo hiciste cuando Nico murió, ¿por qué ahora?....El hecho de que esté aquí no significa que quiera estarlo, solo estoy aquí por Abuelita y Ariana….There was so many thing going on in my life that moment & you blamed me for everything, I get it my fault but you didn't have to shove in my face!!! Por qué? Tuve que crecer durante los últimos 5 años sin ninguna ayuda, Look how that turned out & when I need you…you weren't there!! So ya I'm doing bien Mama!!"

I wanted to tell her more to tell her that her daughter wasn't doing okay. That she was going through all this trauma she buried deep inside her. Did she deserve to know I didn't think so?

Maricel: "Your Abuelita has Cancer."

Faith: "What!?"

Maricel: "No quise decir nada pero el doctor me lo dijo antes de que llegaras."

Faith: "Who else knows, mama quien mas sabe!?"

Maricel: "Aún no les he dicho, tu Abuelita no quiere que te preocupes…va a empezar quimioterapia en 2 semanas."

Faith: "Que!?" I was in disbelief. " I threw my crutches on the floor pissed. "She has cancer!!? & you didn't decide to tell me when I arrived here yesterday, no lo creo!!" She tries to calm me down.

I can't believe my mother, she has the audacity to do this shit. I walk over to her not giving a shit about my foot.

Maricel: Fue mi decisión...Abuela no quería decírtelo a ninguno de los dos, ella no quería que te preocuparas porque apenas estás en casa…y"

Faith: "Y Que, what!? I'd come back home para ella, Mom, that's my Abuelita for God sake…don't you fucking think I should know about her cancer & treatment that shit didn't work on Grandpa it made it worse!! What made you feel bad for me huh!? estas estúpidas lesiones son mi culpa y eso no te disculpa por no decirme cuando llegué aquí…"

We continued to argue with one another causing a scene & commotion. People looking out of their rooms & nurses walking our way.

Nurse: "Miss you're being really disruptive right now can you please keep it down, I understand it's personal issues but please think of the other patients in the hospital."

Faith: "Calm!? Down I am fucking calm." I say frustrated, keeping my voice down. "Like I care I hate hospitals." I mumble.

Nurse: "Ma'am, miss I don't want to be the one to call security please, look, sit down, we don't want you to injure yourself."