Chapter 11: I can't

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Maybe it's worth another try
Better place, better time

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I finally decides to go to school again. After crying in my room for what feels like forever, I say fuck this shit, fuck Peter Parker, fuck this stupid feeling, I'm out.

"You're ready?" Gwen asks me as she walks into my room. "As ready as I'll ever be," I replied to her.

I decided to live next to Gwen. Because it's just easier. I gave her the key to my place so she can come in at any time she likes.

I grab my bag and I'm ready to go to school. When I'm at school, people are looking at us. Maybe out of pity or condolences. I just put my head down and follow Gwen.

I was about to go to my locker but Peter is there. "I can't do this," I say to Gwen and I go to the girl's bathroom. I quickly put some water on my face and I look in the mirror. You can do this. You can do this.

I grab some tissue and dab it across my face. I walk to my locker again and Peter is still there. I quickly got to my locker and open it. I just want this to be done as quickly as possible.

"Hey, can we talk?" Peter said to me and I got what I needed from my locker. "We have nothing to talk about," I quickly close my locker and walk away from him. Peter was about to follow me and was stopped by a very angry Gwen Stacy.

Ever since I told her what happened between Peter and me, she's been very protective of me. She helps me a lot with my breakups. I'm glad I decided not to push her away.

The school ended and Gwen already left to Oscorp. I still work at Oscorp but I still said that I need some time and they understand. Now, I'm under the bleacher. Alone.

Brings me back to my first day in school. Always eating in here rather than in the cafeteria where everybody is. I read a book as I feel a breeze of a sunny day.

Then I see someone walk to me. I quickly look to whoever it is and it's Peter. "I've been looking all over for you," he said to me and I didn't say anything. Even looking at his face still hurts me.

"I'm really sorry for breaking up with you," he said to me and I just take a sharp breath in. "I didn't mean to hurt you," he said to me and I look at him. Ignoring the tears that come out of my eyes.

"Well, you did, Parker. You break my heart until it turns to a million pieces and I have to pick it up one by one and I'm still not done with it," I tell him and he went to grab my hand but I retracted my hand.

"Don't make this any harder than it already is," I say to him as I gather my belonging and walk away from him. "Kara, wait," he said as he grabs my hand.

I didn't turn to him. It hurts so bad. "Before your mom died, she said to me that if I really love you then I have to stay away from you. To keep you out of harm's way," he tells me. Hearing the word live made me instantly turn to him.

"What?" I ask him as I walk closer to him. "I love you, Kara. I love you so much that it hurts because every time I see you, all I want to do is kiss you and hug you and talk to you. Spending all of my time on this earth with you,"

I couldn't say anything. I was speechless. He loves me? He loves me. Then he holds both of my hands. "I. . .," I want to say it back but he stops me. "You don't have to say it now just because you feel obligated to,"

"You used my own words against me, Parker. I'm proud of you," I say to him as I put my hands on the back of his neck. "I love you," he puts his forehead against mine and I closed my eyes.

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