𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐁𝐈𝐃𝐃𝐄𝐍 || 𝐀𝐒𝐇𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐘

chapter 21

i felt my heartbeat increase and my pace slow, why was she at the store? but i quickly hope for the best, maybe she was looking for me and i wasn't there so she left... but wouldn't she just text me first?

"what?" i heard from beside me, and for a second i completely forgot ashtray was there.

"oh! uh.. that was amelia." i awkwardly replied, pointed to a figure that you could barely see since we were still down the road from the store and she had walked even farther away.

he slowly nodded, "okay... so?"

i sighed, thinking i was being dramatic and overthinking it. "you don't think that's a little weird? her just showing up at the store?"

he thought about it for a second, before shrugging. "she could've been looking for you. or.. you know, getting something. it is a store." he chuckled a little.

i huffed, nodding. but i couldn't help the gut feeling i had.. "always trust your gut." right?

for now, i let it go until i could ask fez why she had been there.

but as we were now in front of the store, only a couple steps away from the door, i grew even more nervous.

and because of this, as soon as ashtray tried reaching for the door to open it, i grabbed it arm. he quickly turned around, his eyebrows raised and he looked confused.

"uh..." i tired thinking of some excuse that could make us wait longer to go inside, but once i peeked around him and saw fezco sitting there, his eyes on his lap and he seemed.. fine, i guess. i sighed, "sorry." and let him move to open the door again.

he took a second, reading my face and then slowly, turning to the door again.

the moment the door opened and the little bell rung, fezcos head shot up. and for this, i held my breathe.
what the fuck did amelia do.

i quickly took a step back from ashtray, keeping the act i've had for weeks now.

"um.. hi fez?" i spoke up, squinting my eyes at the look he gave ashtray.

he didn't reply, so ashtray just nodded and made his way to the freezer, only to stop dead in his tracks.

"since when have y'all been dating?"

my eyes shot open, quickly looking away from ashtray to fezco. there's no way..

"what?" ashtray spoke, slowly taking steps back towards us. but now isn't the time to play dumb, amelia must've told him something, and there's no way he didn't believe it.. coming from my "friend" and all.

he shook his head, and my heart dropped at the disappointed look on his face.

"ash.. man." fezco started, sighing and the looking to me, but i quickly looked away. i feel guilty, so guilty.

ashtray on the other hand... "okay, why the fuck does it matter anyway?"

my head whipped over at ashtray, that's only gonna start an argument.

"ashtray-." i started, only to be cut off my him.

"no. why fez? why does it matter to you?" he repeated, coming even closer to both of us.

"ash..." i muttered, shaking my head and going closer to hit, so he could back up.

fezco stood up, "what the fuck? y'all are."

i sighed in frustration, and once fezco looked over at me, disappointment and anger all over. my shoulders dropped, i felt small.. stupid.

i knew fezco didn't want anything going on between me and ashtray, yet i still said yes.. i'm a fucking idiot.

"i'm sorry." i breathed out, making both fezco and ashtray look at me.

"the fuck? no. it's none of your business fez." ashtray quickly shook his head, grabbing my arm like he was about to take me to the freezers with him, but fezco stopped him.

"nah, man. it is. alright?" he started, and this time, ashtray let him continue.
"i told y'all i didn't want shit going on, years ago. and here y'all are, how long have y'all been lying?"

again, my heart sunk. and my thought took over, blocking out everything fezco and ashtray were saying.

i knew it.
i knew it was a bad idea.
now fezcos pissed.
and they're arguing.
all because i should've pushed ashtray away when he kissed me the first time.

soon the sound of them arguing got louder, and i did the one thing i could i this moment.. i took ashtrays hand off my arm, and made my way out the store door, quickly walking down the road, hearing them yell my name behind me.

i felt the need to cry, feeling like i had let fezco down. but i kept myself together, calling the group chat that didn't have amelia in it.

"hello?" i heard annas voice first, and i let out a sigh of relief.

"anna! are you home?" i asked, but before she replied, "hello?" , "i'm watching netflix." hazel and sage are also on the call now.

"sorry. um, are you guys at home?" i asked.

"yeah." they all replied.

"can i go to one of y'all's houses? fezco found out." i finally told them, and i heard a lot of shuffling, before the three voices basically shouted "yes!"

"my moms not here, you guys can all come." hazel said, and i quickly said bye, making my way to her house.

i kept looking around, it being pitch black, and some people walking, i was scared shitless.

but eventually, i made it to hazels house and knocked loudly, and as soon as the door opened she embraced me into a hug. "i'm so sorry, mal."

i nervously chuckled, "it's okay.."

she pulled away, hearing loud footsteps, we both turned away to see both sage and anna running at us.

"mal!"
"god, mal."
they both said, pushing me into the house as they went fast at me.

"i'm sorry." sage said, pulling me into a hug.

and after, anna did. "how did he find out?"

i looked down at my feet, bitting the inside of my cheek. "uh- well.. amelia. amelia.. told him."

their mouths dropped, before anna quickly spoke. "i knew it! i knew she was a fucking jealous bitch." she growled, making me laugh a little.

my eyes moved from anna, to sage who had a questionable look on her face, making me confused.

but soon, we all agreed to leave amelia alone, avoid her. and hazel said i could stay at her house until i wanted to go home.. but i really didn't want to at all.

but i know i have to, and waiting longer will make things worse.

but for now, i muted both fezco and ashtrays messages and put my phone on silent, i was with my three friends and fine... i'll see ashtray tomorrow anyways.

AUTHORS NOTES:
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