In Love

Chapter 43 He Smells Like Sex

Nikkita Pov

I couldn't sleep, his pain expression keep popping up in my head, he doesn't deserve what I did to him but I just feel it the right thing to do. I know tonight is going to be a sleepless night. I keep tossing and turning on the bed but I couldn't find any sleep. I stand-up from my bed and went out of my room. I went to his, I knock on his door for a while but I heard nothing.

I open the door and went inside, he isn't here, where will he be. I come out of the room to see him climbing the staircase. Need anything he ask, as soon as he his in my sight. He smell like sex, I know it what am thinking, I don't need to be told. Want to ask some questions about the work you give me, I said in a small voice.

He look tired and stress and his face is expressionless. Okay let dicuss that tomorrow, he said dismissively and walk away, I run behind him, but I want to work on it tonight, I said but he did not turn back nor look my way, he open his door and is about to walk in when I hold his hand to stop him and he did stop, His cold eyes look at me and I freeze not knowing what to say.

A tears slip out of my eyes without my knowledge. I heard him take in a deep breath. What did you want to ask? He ask without the intention of letting me in. I-- yo--u I couldn't form a concrete word. More tears slip out of my eyes and before I knew it or stop myself, I jumped on him. I wrapped my hands around his neck and my legs around his waist. I buried my face in the crook of his neck, and I cry my eyes out, I just couldn't take it when he behave like a stranger to me, I don't like it when he behave cold to me, I don't like it when he treat me like a nobody, I want him back but I know I can't.

I also felt him wrap his hands around my waist and he walk in with me still in his embrace. He slam the door shut and smack my back against the it, he captured my lips with his and kiss me hard and rough, he suck on my lips and bite it. I couldn't keep up to his pace, I pull away breathless and rest my head on his chest, when I caught my breath, I couldn't look at him.

I felt ashamed of myself, he will be a father anytime soon and here I am giving myself to him like some prostitute. He cup my cheeks and make me look into his deep brown eyes. Tell me? Just two words and it have such a heavy weight, just two words and it can change everything. Just two word and I will be happy but can I bare to see someone in pain, I know what it felt like to be rejected, my parents reject me, so I don't want him to reject his child.

I step back away from him and said nothing. If you tell me what wrong, I promise to do whatever you want me to, he said and I look back into his eyes. I ask him with my eyes if he really meant what he said and he shake his head yes. She's pregnant, I blunt out, I don't want to say it, I don't want to look desperate but I can't just help it, I really can't.

I heard him let out a deep and heart warming laughter, I raise up my head to look at him, I don't know if this is reality anymore or am dreaming, I just don't want to loose him. I'm sorry, I said in a shaking voice. He hold my hand and pull me into his embrace, why are you sorry, he ask while rubbing my back. I couldn't control myself just now even when I knew you're going to be a father, I said already hicciping.