𝐏𝐚𝐢𝐧 & 𝐏𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐮𝐫𝐞 [𝐈𝐰𝐚𝐎𝐢; 𝐇𝐢𝐠𝐡 𝐒𝐜𝐡𝐨𝐨𝐥 𝐀𝐔]

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[ I w a i z u m i ]

"Hajime, I know who you brought over. You brought over Hiroto's son, Tooru." My mom says, walking into my room and closing the door behind her, locking it. I raise a brow, looking up from my book. "Don't play the dumb card on me." She warns, making me gulp as I stare at her.

"Fine, he was. So what? We're partners for a project, it's not like we can work on the project ourselves." I state venomously, the mere mention of Oikawa pissing me off. I still don't understand why I hate him, I just do I guess. He is kinda cute though... Wait, what the fuck? Why did I just think that?

"If Katsu found out, he'd beat you and I wouldn't be able to do anything to stop it. He doesn't want an Oikawa in his house... He's still... Stuck over the fact that he didn't get the girl he wanted." She says, her voice cracking. Dammit, I fucking hate it when I see my mom cry, I hate it even more when my dad is the cause.

"But he loves you," I say sternly, sitting up as she sits on the edge of my bed.

"Maybe... But he's mad over the fact that Hiroto took Kaede away from him. But I want you to try to be friends with Tooru." She then drops a bombshell on me, my eyes flying wide open.

"HELL NO!" I shout. "I hate him! Fucking hate him!"

"Why though?" She asks, the inner corners of her eyebrows turning upward as she tilts her head to the side a tad.

"I-... I don't know. The moment I saw him, I hated him. He's a walking god with that pretty face of his." I spit out coldly, my mom raising a suspicious brow at me. "Not like that! I wanna punch it and ruin it."

"Really? Do you?"

"Are you trying to imply that I'm questioning my sexuality?"

"Maybe."

"I'm straight, always will be."

"Right. Keep telling yourself that. You called his face pretty." She says, staring at me with a blank expression. Okay, that's kinda creepy because I can't read her facial expression since it's so... void. What the actual fuck is she going on about though? I'm not questioning my sexuality, I've always been attracted to girls, not guys. That doesn't relate to why Oikawa makes me so aggravated.

Hearing a notification go off on my phone, I grab it from my desk and open Instagram where Atsumu has tagged someone on a post. Holy shit, that's him and Oikawa. My mom peeks over my phone and drags out a whistle.

"You sure?" She asks, laughing as my face falls incredibly red from embarrassment. Not because of him and that outfit... Right? "I think you have some questions to ask yourself." She says, standing up and walking out of my room.

Sighing, I toss my phone onto my bed just as I look at the clock on my desk under the window that's located right next to my bed. It's too early to go to bed.

Deciding to go for a drive, I stand up and get dressed in a simple outfit before heading out of my room. "I'M GOING OUT!" I shout through the house as I put on my shoes and grab my keys. Sliding into my car, I turn on the car and buckle up before slowly driving forward. Waiting for the gate to open, I grab my phone and call Sakusa.

"Yes?"

"Can I come over? I got a crisis going on." I say in a shaky tone.

"Sure... I'll see you when you get here. Also, Ushijima and Mattsun are here." He says as I hum an okay before ending the call. Driving forward, I turn onto the road and make my way over to Sakusa's place which is around 20 minutes away from my place.

After making it to his house, I step out of my car after parking it and shut the door. The front door to his house is opened, and the curly-haired raven steps outside. "Took you long enough." He says as I roll my eyes.

"Shut the hell up, Kusa." I spit out coldly.

"So cold and for what reason?" He asks, following me inside and closing the door. I immediately head over to the living room where Mattsun and Ushijima are located.

"So, finally questioning it?" Mattsun asks, catching me off guard as I stare at him with a confused expression. "Told you he wouldn't understand, give me my 50." He orders, looking at Ushijima who rolls his eyes and slaps 50 bucks onto Mattsun's hand. "Thanks, babe."

"Call me babe one more time and I'll sock you." The larger man says in a warning tone, Mattsun putting his hands in the air, scooting over. "Anyway, he means are you finally questioning your sexuality?"

"How the fuck-"

"You're the type to hate and be rude to someone you like. You just started hating Oikawa the moment you saw him. It's a subconscious thing for you. Think about it, you have no reason to hate him other than that pathetic reasoning about your dad and his dad." Sakusa says, sitting down on one of the couches.

"My mom is thinking the same... She said that I have some questions to ask myself." I say nervously, sitting down slowly.

"How did you react inside when that girl walked up to Oikawa?" Mattsun asks.

"Well, I felt... Angry? I thought it was directed at him and not the girl." I state honestly, looking down at the ground. "Shit... Maybe I do feel something toward him. My heart rate quickens when I see him, but I always thought that it was because he angered me. That face of his, I want to ruin it."

"And why do you want to ruin it?" Ushijima asks.

"I honestly don't know, alright?" I say, frowning. This is pissing me off, just thinking about him is pissing me off. I can't get his image out of my head and it's fueling my anger. I'm shaking but I don't know why. Maybe because I'm so angry?

"You have severe anger issues, man. You need to fix that if you want to have a chance with him. He's scared of you and for good reason. It's only been 3 days, I think you two need to get to know each other before you try making a move on him." Sakusa says.

"What makes you think I want to make a move on him?" I ask as Sakusa flicks my shoulder. "What was that for?"

"There, your straight pole has a dent in it. It ain't so straight now, is it?" At this, Ushijima and Mattsun cackle as the curly-haired raven smiles at me. I stare at him with a done expression. Why am I even friends with him? Not to mention those two.

"Y'all are pathetic," I say with a groan.

"Yeah yeah, you love us though. Anyway, have you seen Atsumu's post? He and Oikawa look fine as fuck." Mattsun says, Sakusa and I snapping our attention over to him with scowls on our faces. "Straight you say, hmmm? Chill, I have a lover and I'm staying loyal." He says bluntly, Ushijima snorting.

"I am straight," I stated coldly.

"Right, and the moon is green," Ushijima says, making me roll my eyes. "Admit it, you feel something for him."

"Okay fine! Maybe I do!" I shout, standing up. The three look up at me as I continue to speak. "I don't know how feelings work, and I certainly don't know how they work with a guy. You need to help me get closer to Oikawa. I'll do anything you want, just help me." I say in a begging tone.

"'Bout time bitch." Mattsun pitches in. "Of course, we'll help you. You're our friend despite your bitch attitude." He adds, the other two nodding.

"Thanks... I'm gonna go ahead and head home. The party is still on Friday, right?" I ask, looking at Sakusa who nods. "Alright, bye," I say, leaving the house and sliding into my car before driving back to my house.

Reaching my house, I park beside my dad's truck and slide out. Shit's going to hell really quick. I don't realize my own feelings anymore. They're so confusing, but if my dad found out I'm questioning my sexuality, I'll get one hell of a beating. He's said it before and he will surely say it again, he doesn't want a gay son. Let alone bisexual.

Walking inside and kicking off my shoes, I walk upstairs to my room and back up against my door where I slide down.

I really do need to change my attitude or else I'm completely fucked.

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A/N: I love writing in Iwaizumi's POV.