𝐏𝐚𝐢𝐧 & 𝐏𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐮𝐫𝐞 [𝐈𝐰𝐚𝐎𝐢; 𝐇𝐢𝐠𝐡 𝐒𝐜𝐡𝐨𝐨𝐥 𝐀𝐔]

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!!TRIGGER WARNING!!

[ O i k a w a ]

Walking into science, I head over to my seat and sit down. Shirabu looks at me with a hesitant look in his eyes before scooting closer to me and whispering in my ear. "Please tell me I'm not the only one who believes something bad is going to happen?" He asks.

"You're not the only one..." I mumble, the copperhead pulling away and scooting back over to Semi who wraps a protective arm around him. A few moments pass before Bokuto, Sakusa, and Iwaiuzmi arrive. The spiky brown-haired male stares at me with narrowed eyes as he sits down. My heart clenches while my stomach twists into a knot.

"You don't belong here." He says, Shirabu choking on air. "You not only don't belong here at this school, but you also don't belong anywhere. Period. And I'm talking the whole world. They don't need you, all you are is a waste of space. So... With all that said, go do us a favor and die."

"IWAIZUMI!" Shirabu shrieks, turning his attention to me as I sit there completely stunned. The 4 stare at him as if he's gone insane, and he doesn't seem too affected by it. "WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU?!" He shouts, not caring that other people are looking our way.

I choke back a cry as I stand up and cover my mouth, jogging out of the classroom. Shit, I left my phone. But I'm not going back in there, not after what he just said to me... Why did I think there was something there? I'm so stupid... So fucking stupid!

Running outside, I grab my keys from my pocket and unlock my car before sliding in and shutting the door. Placing my hand on my forehead, I sob harshly. My vision goes blurry from the tears, preventing me from seeing clearly. Looking in the rearview mirror, I spot a few familiar faces running over. I need to get out of here.

Starting up the car, I quickly reverse and drive off out of the parking lot. I quickly wipe away the tears so I can see, but they only get replaced by new ones. Speeding down the street, barely anyone is out, thankfully.

Finding a vacant parking lot, I quickly park my car and press my forehead on the steering wheel. Letting out a scream, I toss my head back and cry, my hands on my face. (By personal experience, I can tell you that he's not being dramatic. Being told to go die by someone you care about... It does numbers on you.)

After a few minutes, my head starts pounding, making everything 100x worse. I need to get home. My parents will question why I'm back, I have to come up with a lie. Say that I got sick and the school let me go home. Yeah, I'll use that.

Driving home, I pull up into the driveway and step out, composing myself before heading inside quietly. "Tooru? What are you doing home?" My mom asks, walking into view from the kitchen. Closing the door, I speak.

"Got sick... Was told to come home." I say, walking over to the stairs and walking up to my room. Once I'm inside, I shut the door and lock it before continuing my silent crying session.

Pacing around my room, my mind is clouded with suicidal thoughts. Everyone is better off with me dead. I am a waste of time and space, everything I do... It's just wrong. If I die, I won't be hurting anymore. I won't have to put up a fake exterior just to make other people happy.

Making up my mind, I walk over to my bathroom and grab the knife I have hidden under a rag in one of the drawers. Staring at it, I back up against the wall and press it down on my forearm. I flinch upon hearing a loud pounding on my door.

"TOORU!" I hear my dad shout. I gulp down a sob, sliding down the wall while slowly slicing my arm. I breathe deeply through gritted teeth, the pain making me throw my head back. Just do it, Tooru... Everything will be over soon.