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"𝐂𝐚𝐧 𝐈 𝐩𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐠𝐨 𝐭𝐨 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐥𝐮𝐧𝐜𝐡 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐲𝐨𝐮? 𝐒𝐡𝐞'𝐬 𝐭𝐫𝐲𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐨 𝐛𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐤 𝐮𝐬 𝐮𝐩. 𝐂𝐚𝐧 𝐈 𝐭𝐞𝐥𝐥 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐞𝐧𝐞𝐝 𝐛𝐞𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐠𝐨 𝐩𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞," Jer pleaded from next to me on the bed.

I looked over at him, "So something else did happen."

"No, yes, sort of," he said and I sat up.

"What does that even mean," I asked and he also sat up to have a better conversation.

"Do you remember when I was late for lunch because Belly and I got those bracelets," he asked and I reluctantly nodded, not liking where this was going at all. "We had started talking about our relationship, as in you and me. She was trying to convince me to break up with you and I wasn't hearing it. She got upset and was convinced I was in love with her. I kept saying that, no, I was not in love with her, but it got bad. She tried to kiss me and I didn't let her. It's not what this is about, but it is what triggered it."

"Triggered what Jer? Just get to the point please," I said and he nodded. My arms were crossed and my nails were digging into my arms so I wouldn't cry.

"Right, sorry. Um so that night that she kissed me, I hadn't been doing well and um," he paused for what felt like forever. "I didn't know what was gonna happen with us and I," he paused again and I wanted to punch him, I didn't, but he was irritating the shit out of me. "I knew exactly what was gonna happen," he said quickly and my mouth dropped. I was frozen, not one part of me moved for I don't know how long. "Taylor told me what was gonna happen and I let it because I wanted to prove to you that I wanted you-" I cut him off.

"What the fuck," I said in an uncharacteristically calm voice and every part of me went numb. "I'm fucking done Jeremiah. Leave my house and leave me alone and stay away. Just so we're clear this is not a fucking break, its a breakup and I'm done," I stated and he looked at me in disbelief.

"What? You're breaking up with me? I didn't cheat or anything," he asked with his eyes watering now.

"Yes and well that may be the case I've warned you plenty of times. You've been walking a fine line for the entire summer and you went too far. Leave my house," I replied and left my room before he could stop me.

I locked myself in the bathroom and sat against the wall crying. Well not exactly crying, more like a violent panic attack. I heard the front door close and I facetimed Nicole with shaking hands and she answered almost immediately.

"Hey I'm almost to your hou- woah what's going on Ken," she asked and I set my phone down.

"C- can't breathe," I said shakily.

"Hey hey it's okay. Focus on your breathing Ken, breathe with me," Nicole said and I tried and failed. "Keep trying babe, I'm here," she said and I heard the front door close again. I reached over and unlocked the door and a sprinting Nicole appeared in front of me. "Do you want space or a hug," she asked and I opened my arms from a lack of words.

"I broke up with him," I managed to say between ragged breaths and she pulled me into a tight hug.

"Breathe babe, mirror me okay," she said and I nodded. I could feel her breathing through the hug and tried to match it. I eventually did and calmed myself down enough to tell her what happened.

"Holy shit Ken," Nicole replied when I had recounted what happened to her and she held me closer. After a few more minutes she asked, "Do you still want to go to the lunch? I can call and tell tummy that you aren't feeling it."