My Youth is Yours (RPDR Multiship)

Twenty-Nine

Daya's POV:
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I clung onto Maddy as if my life depended on it, not able to fully process what was happening. I fought to catch my breath, sobbing against her neck as she continued to talk to Alex.

"Alex I swear Daya never hurt me..." Maddy whimpered out. "It was Jonathan, I swear it was all him. I-I-"

"Calm down, Maddy. I believe you." Alex's calm voice did little to soothe me. I was being called an abuser by thousands of people. They all thought I hurt my best friend that badly. They all thought I was a monster.

And maybe I was. Because none of this would've happened if I hadn't been so stupid. If I hadn't raised my voice and my fist at one of the people who made me the happiest. Even if I didn't end up laying a hand on Maddy, I almost did. I terrified her and put our bond in jeopardy. So all of those people were right. I was a monster.

"I'm going to talk to my legal team about this and see what we could possibly do." Alex said through the phone. "For now, I need you, Daya and Alyssa to stay off of social media and try not to panic. We'll take care of this."

It was a little too late for that. I tried to force back my whimper but it escaped my lips anyways. I stopped fighting it, letting myself go limp and tremble against Maddy.

"Dee-Dee..." Willow's voice was soft, but still sounded worried. "Dee-Dee please look at me..."

I shook my head, holding Maddy closer to me even though I was sure I had soaked her shirt with her tears. "This is all my fucking fault..."

"Daya no..." Maddy said in a scared voice, pulling away which forced me to raise my head from her neck. I wiped my eyes, taking staggered breaths when she cupped my face in her hands. "Daya this isn't your fault..."

"Yes it is..." I hiccupped, not able to meet her eyes. "I should've never g-gotten so angry at you. I terrified you and made you so scared and you know it. I-I know you did the whole forgive and forget thing but I c-can't forget, baby..." I somehow managed to get that out, even if it was probably incoherent.

Maddy slowly shook her head. "Daya..."

"It replays in my head almost every night." I finally admitted, believing more and more that I really was the monster people thought I was. "You begging me not to hurt you, Alyssa yelling at me to stop, Willow's scared face, if I hadn't been so fucking stupid none of this would've happened..." I somehow broke even more, crying into my hands as I thought about the mess I had created. "I-I'm so, so sorry..."

It was quiet in the room now, my cries filling it. Maddy took a shaky breath, tears still running down her face. "Sunshine..." She whispered, pushing herself back into my arms and pulling my head down against her chest. "This isn't your fault..."

"It is." I insisted as I buried my head in her chest. None of them could convince me otherwise. I had messed up, and now the consequences were affecting my friends too. Not even Willow's comforting words and the way Maddy tried wiping away my tears could help.

The door to our room opened, and I slowly looked over to see Orion holding her phone with a worried look on her face, Jorgeous clinging to her arm.

"People are saying...really rude stuff on the pictures I took at the party." Orion said, glancing back down at her phone. "Mainly about Daya being, uh...an abuser. What's going on?"

The word made me flinch, and I hid my face back against Maddy's chest. I couldn't control the next round of crying, feeling as if I was falling apart.

"Jonathan..." Maddy whispered, sounding numb and defeated. "The pictures and the recording could only come from him..."

"But isn't he in jail?" Alyssa said, looking at the awful comments under all of Orion's pictures. It was tempting for me to reach for my phone and look at them myself, but Willow was keeping my phone away from me.

"He is. For more than what he did to me. Or at least he should be. Unless he..." Maddy's voice got quieter, hands shaking as they stroked through my hair. "I don't know how he posted those..." She changed the subject.

Jorgeous had been silent the whole time, until now. "I know how..." She whispered quietly. "If I can see the post, I bet I can tell you who posted it."

Alyssa sighed before showing her the original post. I turned my head, closing my eyes and not wanting to deal with this anymore. I had ruined everything. Because of me nothing could ever be the same.

Jasmine's POV:
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Maddy: I need you. Pls.

I stared down at the screen in surprise. Her and Daya hadn't left their room all day, and now it was well into the night. I attempted to untangle myself from Bosco's arms, giving up and deciding to take her with me when her grip only tightened. I balanced her in my arms as I left the room, walking down the quiet hall to Maddy and Daya's.

As soon as I knocked, the door opened and Willow grabbed me by the arm. I yelped when she dragged us inside, finding Maddy practically buried under sleeping Daya who had been tucked in under her blanket.

Maddy looked up from her, teary eyed and looking exhausted. "Couldn't come to you. She won't let go and when I attempted to pick her up we just fell back onto the bed." She moved to prove her point, and I watched as Daya pulled her back immediately and shoved her head back into the crook of her neck.

"That's fine, I get it." I said as I sat at the end of their bed, glancing at Bosco who was still fast asleep on me. "Are you guys okay...?"

Maddy shook her head, tracing the tattoos on Daya's bicep. "Not at all...Even Alyssa is on the verge of a breakdown and she usually manages to keep it together. She's with June and Deja right now."

"Daya hasn't moved since she found out." Willow said as she settled down on the other side of her girlfriend, attempting to smooth her hair out of her face. "I feel useless. She won't listen to anything any of us say. Not even Alex."

I sighed, thinking back to what I had read myself. Some people had come onto both mine and Bosco's social media accounts, commenting horrible things on pictures we had tagged Daya in. We had both gone private to keep it away and deleted all the comments. But it didn't feel like enough.

"What did you need me for...?" I asked softly, having a feeling I knew. I knew who had done this before I was even told who they were suspecting.

Maddy bit her lip, leaning her head against Daya's. "I-I know Alex told us to stay off of social media, but I have to do something..." She said quietly. "I can't just watch my best friend break. I know what I want to do but I need more...proof." She looked up at me, fidgeting with the corner of her blanket. "More proof that Jonathan is the one who did it to me..."

That's what I thought she wanted. I slowly nodded, tracing patterns along Bosco's back. I didn't want to relive what I went through with Jonathan. The nightmares I got every now and then were enough. But if digging through the proof that I have would help, then I was doing it.

"Tell me what you need." I took a deep breath. "And I'll do it."

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Sad chapter again I'm sorry