Our Little Secret

Chapter 5: Something I Will Regret

Love: The worst feeling there is. Causes us to do things we'll regret. - Definition of RFs (Rejected Feelings)

So there I was. Standing there, watching the moon luster off the water. Neal's figure slowly make it's way over to me, excitement bubbles through my veins.

I am so nervous that I will make a fool of myself; all I can do is stand still. It seems Neal reads my mind because he says:

"Don't worry, I checked to make sure nobody was around."

Aukward silence filled the air. Something was gleaming in Neal's eyes but i couldn't tell what.

"Good, I-I I don't know about this." I finally start to say. "You know we shouldn't even be he-"

I was cut off by the luscious lips from his beautiful face. At first, I stumble backwards, but then found myself kissing him back. All I could think about was how amazing he was, and how I could never turn back. I then realized I did something I will regret. I fell in love.

We are now sitting on the sandy beaches talking about random things like school and such.

"So, your star play soccer?" Neal asks me.

"Yea, I wouldn't say I'm that good, but I try." I reply. I felt like I could tell him anything. The sudden akwardness of earlier was melting away from every look at him.

"Have you ever had a boyfriend?" Neal abruptly asks.

"What? I- well, no. Of course I wouldn't. It's dumb, we get paired and that's all." I say firmly.

"Oh well, I thought you were different." Neal says.

"I am. I just,..." I say a little too harshly. I see I have hurt him. I turn to him, look him in the eye, and kiss him, once again. I didn't even mean too. Now, I've gotten even deeper into the mess than I had planned.