Inner Demons

Be Yourself

Have you ever just wanted to scream? Have you ever just wanted to shout at the world? Have you ever just wanted to break free?! Have you ever felt like there was this voice inside of your head saying,"It's time to be you, NOT how anyone wants you to be?" You feel like you've bended yourself to get along with everyone. You realized this on some day in theology class that the teacher asked you,"who are you? What do you want for yourself? Why do you like the things you like? What makes you unique?" Your taken aback by this. You don't know the answer. This is the first time someone asks something about you, about yourself and your interests. You thought to yourself - does my teacher really care or is my teacher just saying that because it's their job? Maybe it's both. But then you replied,"I don't know." Plain and simple. I don't know. It's a phrase that gets you angry at yourself at times. I don't know. I don't know ______. Fill in the blank. It gets you thinking. You ask yourself - why don't I know this? I should know this, and why can't think of any reason as to why I like certain things. I used to be in charge of myself. I used to know what I liked. I used to know everything about myself. Then, one random night, I heard this little tiny voice in my heart. It was telling me that there is still a part of me living, surviving, and helping me on the inside. The voice was little. But the next day it got louder. After that day, it got even more louder. Louder, and louder till I wanted to get the voice out of my head. I felt like I was going to go insane. And one day I became myself. I feel free. There are no weights holding me down. There's nobody to bring me down. I can go far. I can breathe. The only people I am friends with are the ones who fly with me. We are our TRUE selves. We are the ones who don't make people who they aren't. We accept each other for who we are. We are the ones who don't judge. Now the voice is still there, but it's not angry. It's a happy whisper. Be yourself.