August
I pulled back from the kiss and stared into her tear filled eyes. The love she had for me was so real and so strong. I caressed her cheek and the longer l looked in her eyes the more I felt like I was falling in love all over again.
"Desire go pick up the kids and come to my condo."
"Aug-"
"Desire don't fight me on this. I wanna be close to you. I just need to be in your presence where its just me and you. Can you do that fa' me?"
She bit down on her lip and finally agreed with a nod. I kissed her forehead and we walked out. I linked our hands together as we walked down the hall. The walk was silent, but it was a comfortable silence. I knew that I was going to have to take baby steps, but it was all worth it.
We had made it outside and I walked her to her car. She unlocked the doors and I opened the door and ushered her inside. I closed the door and stepped back. I watched as she drove off. I walked to my old school and I saw Sylvia standing there as I approached.
"What's up gangsta granny?"
"God is giving you another chance to get this right and so am I. Don't mess this up."
"Trust me I won't. I can honestly say this had taught me never to take Desire fa' granted."
"Good and keep my lil secret between us."
"Oh you mean the badge, Detective." I chuckled and she rolled her eyes at me.
"Aug I'm serious. There is a lot my family don't know and right now it stays that way. The only thing I want you to worry about is my granddaughter."
"Okay a nigga lips sealed and I'm on it Detective."
She shook her head and walked back into the hospital. I tell ya she is really something else, but I respect the OG in the game because she know her shit. I got in my car and headed down the road. All I could think about is Desire. My therapy session was fast approaching and I wanted her to be with me.
I had about five more minutes before I would be at my condo and I couldn't wait to spend time with my kids and wife. A few minutes later I was pulling into my driveway and shut the engine off. I got out and made my way towards the door. I looked back when I saw Desire's car pull up.
I walked towards her car and helped her get Shariah out. She had Day and he was all smiles. Shariah was sleep and she was so beautiful. Just like her mother. We walked inside and Day took off to his room. I just shook my head.
"Get comfortable and I'ma go get baby girl situated."
"Okay." She said softly as she took a seat on the sofa.
I headed upstairs and got baby girl situated. I turned the monitor on and headed back downstairs. Desire was sitting there indian style. She looked so beautiful and peaceful. I took a moment to stair at her and I should have known she would look up and catch me staring. I really didn't care because I loved looking at her.
"Why are you staring at me like that?"
"Because you are beautiful."
"August what is this about?"
"What do you mean?"
"Don't play crazy. I mean you are being so sincere and sweet."
"Desire a nigga ain't tryna lose you. I love you too much and I love what we have. This family means so much to me and I need you like I need my next breath."
Desire
I sat there and looked at him and I could tell that he was being sincere, but I was still afraid to give in. I couldn't and I wouldn't make this easy for him because he didn't make this shit easy for me. He needs to understand that things don't snap back like a rubber band.
"August you leaving the way you did got me fucked up mentally and definitely emotionally. I mean how the hell do I know you won't just up and leave again, shutting me out when you are dealing with something?"
"You just gotta trust me."
"Trust isn't given its earned."
"I know baybeh. Just give me a chance to prove to you that I'm truly sorry and I want our marriage to work."
I looked at August and I saw the sincerity in his eyes, but still I couldn't just act like nothing happened.
"August tell me what's really going on with you?"
"Desire I'm afraid."
"Afraid of what?" I scrunched my eyebrows in confusion.
"Afraid that you are going to leave me and do the shit to me that my ex did to me."
"Say what?"
"Look Desire I always felt this way, but I brushed it off up until your ex showed up."
"Wow! You mean to tell me that you left because of being insecure about me cheating on you when I never gave you a reason to think or feel that way, but here I am paying for someone else's wrong and that is so unfair. Hurt me before I hurt you right, but remember August you fucking cheated on me, but yet you think or thought I was going to do what your ex did."
"Tell me at this moment, this very second do you still feel this way?"
He looked at me and didn't say anything. I shook my head and headed upstairs to get my kids. I just don't understand. Maybe me going with him to these therapy sessions will shed some light on this.
Understanding is the key, but how the hell do I understand something like this.....
In their therapy sessions you will see what causes August to feel this way and why he has been feeling this way....
Excuse mistakes!
