Nedra
I couldn't believe what I had just witnessed. I sat on the side of the hospital bed as they stitched my the gash over my eyebrow. My son only received a few cuts and bruises, but Twan and August were in critical condition. Desire, Sylvia and Lawrence only had minor injuries. Vanessa was dead on arrival and the girl that opened the door died as soon as she got to the hospital.
My nerves were beyond shot. I couldn't believe that this was happening and it was all my stupid fault. Tears of hurt, shame and guilt streamed down my face as I looked over at my son. I didn't deserve to live after all that I had caused. I should have never wanted to have that damn threesome.
"Stupid." I hit myself against my temple.
"Nedra, you are going to have to be still. I know that you are hurting, but I won't be able to finish stitching you up properly if you keep moving." The nurse told her.
"I really fucked up. This is all my fault. My husband and his best friend wouldn't be fighting for their lives right now if it wasn't for me. How am I going to tell their folks because of me they might not make it from the injuries sustained. How dammit?!" She yelled.
"Ned calm down. "
"I can't calm down. This shit is all my fault Janet."
I looked over at my son as one of the ER doctor's finished examining him. I was so blessed that nothing happened to my son. I would never be able to forgive myself it had. Now I'm faced not knowing if my husband will live or die. I can't even look at Desire right now because the hurt, anger and hatred that's in her eyes is killing me more than anyone could. I know that when Aug's mother gets here and Twan's parents all hell is really going to break loose.
Desire
I looked through the glass as they worked on my husband. My mother and grandmother stood by my side. Through all the shit that we have been through, I can't live without my husband. We had just started to get things back on track and now this. I pray to God that he pulls through this. August has suffered a severe head injury and has three gunshots, one to the abdomen and two in the upper chest. Twan has suffered a spinal injury from the three gunshots he received in his back. Then the grenade threw both him and August against the wall.
Valarie intended for everyone to die including her and she did just that. Now I can't stand the sight of my best friend because if it had not been for her weakness this would not be happening. I hate this shit and it hurts seeing the love of your life fighting for his life.
"Momma, grandma, I don't know what I'm going to do without my baby. We have had our share of problems, but I never wanted to see it end like this." Tears streamed down my face as my hands splayed against the window.
"Baby you gotta pray. Trust God and believe that everything will be alright." My grandmother said.
I only nodded and let my emotions take control. This was hard for me and I had to tell Ky and Drew to go home. I didn't want the kids to be around this right now. Kids can sense hurt and pain. I knew that Day and even Shariah would sense that something was wrong.
"Desire."
I turned at the sound of my name and August mom stood there with tears in her eyes. I stepped from my mother and grandmother so that I could embrace her. "Mama Shelia, I'm so sorry. I know that you have already lost one son and this right here is too much for you to bare."
"I'm putting my trust in God. He has the final say so over everything. It is hard for me. Lord knows it is. The pain of losing a child before you is unbearable. I'm thankful that God gave me a praying spirit. The rest of the family will be down in the morning. How are you holding up?"
"This is so hard for me. I have never had to be on this end and now I can see how August felt. In spite of everything this is how I wanted things. We had just got back on track. We were working through our problems." I broke down not able to stand anymore.
My family surrounded me as cried. This was too much for me.
"Desire."
I heard my name again and I looked into the face of Ned. I sat crouched on the floor looking at her through tear filled eyes. I knew that I looked a mess, but I could care less. I know she didn't know about her being mentally unstable, still it hurts because Ned was affiliated with her.
"Nedra I can't deal with you right now. Right now just got to your husband. He needs you right now. I know that you didn't know Valarie was crazy, but I just can't Ned. I can't."
Just then I heard the dreaded sound of Code blue. My heart stopped as I looked to see where they were taking the crash cart.
August (Coma State)
I was in a bright but happy place. I felt at peace and I really liked where I was going. I felt no stress or worry. This is what I needed and where I needed to be. I felt something tugging on me, like I really needed to think about staying here.
"Yung go back man. It isn't time for you to be here. You have a family that loves and adores you." Mel said as he stared at him.
"Mel I'm happy here. I'm at peace here."
"Daddy what about my brother and sister." The little girl stepped into view.
"You are the little girl that Desire told me about. Y-You are my daughter." Tears streamed down my face.
"Yes daddy I am. I miss you guys, but I know that someday we will be together again." She smiled pulling even more on my heart strings.
"Yung listen to your baby girl. Desire needs you and in spite of everything she loves you so much."
"I know, but I have caused her and my family so much pain."
"You will cause her more if you stay."
I heard what my brother was saying, but being here again with my brother was a great feeling. I stared over them and I walked along the path filled with nothing but light. I heard my brother and daughter telling me to come back and go back, but I was tired mentally and emotionally.
"Mommy needs you daddy."
"Yung don't do this man."
I kept walking and felt things get dimmer and dimmer it felt just like faded roses. "Let her know that I love her......"
Hey Guys I just wanted to drop in and give you and update while I could. There will be a part two to this and I will get deeper into that scene. Thank you guys for being patient and understanding. I love y'all and I know that I have not forgotten about y'all.
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Lady K
