Omniscient
"Dr. Sanchez, we are losing him." The nurse practitioner said as she shocked August again. You could hear the commands and orders given as each staff member worked on him. Desire screamed and cried as she watched her husband through the glass. She knew that he had given up and he didn't want to live anymore. Desire needed August, but right now he just wanted peace.
"Momma I-I can't do this without him. Why is this happening?" She looked up to her mother as tears marred her face. Her grandmother held on to her as did everyone surrounding her.
This was too much for her to endure. Desire couldn't believe that it was over. Her heart hurt and she felt so bad for his mother. Shelia held on to Desire as tears streamed down her face. She began to pray. Prayer always worked, but right now Desire was hurting so that she couldn't even formulate the words for a prayer.
As Desire's family prayed around her Nedra walked into her husbands room. She held back a loud cry seeing her husband hooked up to all the machines. She walked closer to the bed and just stared. Lil man stayed out there with his grandparents. They had no idea what was going on and what brought all this on. Right now her focus was on Twan. That's where her focus should have always been.
She cried silently as she grabbed his hand that lacked strength. "Baby I should be the one laying in this hospital bed, not you. You are a good man, a man that didn't deserve what I did. If I could go back and do it all over again I would." She paused trying to collect herself.
"Twan I remember when we first met at Victoria Secrets. I thought you were the finest and most sexiest man that I had ever seen. I never thought that things would get this deep with us, but it did. You taught me how to love and showed me what love really was. "She wiped tears from her cheeks.
"Baby if you can hear me know that I'm so sorry. I love you so much and I need you. Tyland needs you." She held her head down letting her emotions take over.
She felt a light squeeze on her hand and she looked down at her hand holding his. His eyes were still closed, but he was aware of her presence. That meant that he heard everything that she said. She smiled through her tears and that let her know that things would be okay. Her heart was hurting so bad for Desire. She had been through so much as is.
August was fighting for his life and Desire was fighting for hers because August was her life line. You just couldn't see one without the other. Ned was so hurt and ashamed that she felt that she couldn't even got to her. She felt like seeing her would only cause her more pain. In that moment Ned did something she hadn't done in a long while and that was pray.
August (Coma State)
"Yung man what are you doing? You gotta go back." Mel said as walked behind him.
"Daddy please go back. Please!"
I kept walking until all of a sudden I saw when I first met Desire. I remember it like it was yesterday. I had no idea that we would end up together. Another image flashed when I proposed. Even our wedding day flashed before my eyes.
"Daddy mommy loves you and you love her. Go back for me please." My little angel grabbed my hand.
"Yung don't be stupid man. God has given you everything that you need and don't throw it all away because you tired. We all have been tired, but you gotta remember nothing in life is perfect and things get hard. Even when they do y'all still have each other to get through those hard times."
I knew that what my brotha was saying was right. It was still something that made me want to just go to other side. I looked at my brotha and then back to the light. I looked down at my little girl. Tears streamed down my face because in that moment I was hurting for what I was about to do. My mind went back to all the bullshit I had caused her and she would be better off without me.
I had caused her so much pain and she was too good of a woman for that. I know that we were getting back on the right track and all. I was looking at this accident as a means for me to be out of the picture. I know that this is killing her so much because deep down it's killing me. I love Desire with all my heart even if it doesn't seem like it.
"Baby girl I have to stay here. Mommy needs to have a peace of mind and the only way that she can get that is if I'm out of the picture." I picked her up as she cried against my shoulder.
"Yung you dumb man before you make the biggest mistake of your life I want you to look at this." Mel pointed off to the side.
I stood there and looked at my wife and her entire family, including my mother all around Desire. She was so hurt and broken. I had tears streaming down my face as I watched her try to be strong.
"Man why you show me that?" I asked
"To let you know that you are messing up. She needs you Yung and you better take yo happy ass back."
"Yes daddy please." She wiped her eyes looking up into mine.
I stood there not know what to do in that moment. Either way it went somebody was going to be hurt. I looked at the image of Desire and then back to the light that was tugging me even more.
"Nurse Taylor we need to pronounce him dead. He is gone." He dropped his head in defeat and even hurt.
She dropped her head in defeat along with the other staff. Dr. Sanchez was headed out to tell the family when one of the other ER nurses called him.
"Dr. Sanchez! He has a pulse. Its weak and his breathing is shallow, but he is still holding on barely."
He rushed back to August and checked out what the nurse had told him. What she said was true. He started back working on him so that they could prep him completely for the OR. In the midst of Dr. Sanchez doing so August said in a very weak and faint voice one thing.
"Desire...I luh you....."
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