August
I sat there even more hurt, because I knew that what I had told her, hurt her more than anything. I know that if the shoe was on the other foot I would definitely have walked my ass out too. I'm so fucked up and I was fucked up for not telling her this sooner, but I when she started showing my how much she loved me, how much she rode for me I let it ride. Then along the way I got comfortable and took her love for granted. My wakeup call was when she hit me with them damn divorce papers. I knew then that she wasn't gon' tolerate my bullshit no more and I had to tell her the truth.
Everything is beyond crazy and in spite of the way I have treated Desire I love her with all my heart. I can't think straight without her by my side.
Dr. Harris looked at me with sympathetic eyes and bent my head, running my hands through my hair.
"August give her time. That was a lot to take in, but I'm going to tell you this, Something of that caliber should have been told even before you guys walked down the aisle. It would have saved y'all a lot of problems in the long run. In a marriage you need to always be open and honest no matter how deep it gets."
I knew that she was right, but I was just afraid of how things would go. Now I wish that I had done that because everything is all fucked up. I was just about to get up and walk out when the door opened and Desire stood there with tears in her eyes. I felt my own tears about to fall, because in that moment I knew how much she loved me. I knew how much this marriage meant to her. God knows I really didn't deserve her love and care right now, but it was appreciated.
"Baybeh I-"
"August don't say anything. Let me talk." She wiped tears from her eyes as she struggled to find her words and get her emotions in check. "I get it August. I understand and I know that you need me just as I need you. The love that I have shown you is new to you and when you have never had anybody to be sincere in their love its scary. I love you August and I just want to help you through this as best as I know how."
"It ain't easy, but real love never is. I know in spite of everything you love me. I see it in your eyes. I feel it in your touch. I hear it in your voice. Love like this comes a dime a dozen and I feel like God put us together for a reason. God is testing us right now, but I believe we will pass the test."
"Desire I love you so much." I pulled her to me and held her tightly. "I promise baybeh we will get through this, but know that I am so sorry for putting you through this. I just want us to be happy and at peace with each other. Thank you Desire for being a woman of strength and thank you for putting up with me and my mess."
"I think that y'all are already starting the healing process. I think today was enough, but I want to see you in two weeks and I hope that you have great news for me. Desire you are a woman that represents the strength of women around the world. You show love and you show support even when you yourself need to be shown love and support. August you are a good man, but open up to your wife when things get to heavy for you. Talk to her because she wants to help and be there."
"Now I wills see you two weeks from today." She smiled at us and we walked out.
Once we got outside I walked Desire to her car and she leaned against the driver side door. I looked down at her and wiped the tears that streamed down her face. She was hurting, but through it all she was more concerned about me.
"Desire, look at me." I lifted her chin and the love in her eyes almost made my heart stop. "Can I kiss you? I need to kiss you right now." I moved closer to her and rested my hands at her waist. "Can I Desire?" I whispered across her lips and she gasped.
I knew that was my opening so I connected our lips and it felt like I was falling in love all over again. She wrapped her arms around my neck and my hands found there way to her hair. I deepened the kiss as I tangled my hands in her hair. She played with the hair at the nape of my neck as the kiss got even deeper. I pulled back and rested my forehead against hers as her hands slid down my chest.
"Desire I need you. I need to be close to you."
Desire
I looked into my husband eyes and I saw love, adoration, pain and fear. I reached out and caressed his cheek causing him to lean into my touch.
"August come home. I need you too. I love you."
"I love you too and if you are sure that's what you want, I will definitely come home. Thank you baybeh. I know it is still gon' take time, but through prayer and faith we will get through this."
"Yes baby we will, now lets go home."
This was a very emotional scene because this is real love a love that is the true definition of being patient and kind. It takes a lot for a women to deal with things like this, but through constant prayer and faith you can get through hardships in life.
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