forced to be loved (nph)

You are such a vicious woman, if you suffer, you have to pull away

"Am I right, Shen...yan?"
They didn't call her Xiang Xiaoyuan, they both knew it was just a disguised name, and it didn't make any sense to mention it.
"Or, my teacher Shen?"
"How did you dare to take up a teaching post after killing someone, are you worthy?"
Ji Mingyue's voice was not loud, and she did not panic to call for help. It's all very peaceful now.
Every word stayed in Shen Yan's ears, as loud as thunder.
The sharp shards penetrated deeper into him, and red blood poured out of him, which even wet Shen Yan's hands.
"...Zhaoyang...Ji Zhaoyang..."
Shen Yan said these words with difficulty.
Sure enough it was him.
Thinking that the coolest, most sensible choice is probably wrong from the start.
"Once again, the choice I made may be the same."
She said this in a hoarse voice.
"Don't you have any repentance at this point? Do you think you deserve someone else to die for you?" Ji Mingyue still kept restraint when he was clearly angry, he clearly felt that his body was bleeding, The women kept stabbing sharp shards into his flesh, and he didn't mean to stop it.
"I'm not Emperor Jing of Han, and you're not Zhidu, so naturally I'm not worthy."
"Heh." He sneered, this was the first time he didn't use the pretence of being nice and gentle in front of Shen Yan.
"Ji Mingyue, do you know everything that happened at that time?" Shen Yan calmed down.
"I am clear."
"Your brother and I..." She glanced at Ji Mingyue when she said this. Ji Zhaoyang and Ji Mingyue were different in age. She just guessed that they were brothers from their names. Seeing that Ji Mingyue had no objection, Shen Yan continued to speak.
"When Ji Zhaoyang and I met, we were in high school. The name was Jiahua Middle School. It used to be called Foreign Language. It existed before the founding of the Reunion Kingdom. It was also in Beijing. Better, I got a scholarship, just in time for the change of principal." The school changed from a boys' school to both men and women. "It's absolutely impossible to get in, so I have always cherished the opportunity to study, and I'm also cautious and careful in everything. "
Ji Mingyue gave her a mocking look, Shen Yan exhaled, and continued.
"Ji Zhaoyang is in the same class as me. He was born well and treated me... very well. He confessed to me one day, and the result..."
"He has a fiancee... You should know?" Shen Yan glanced at Ji Mingyue, who was covered in bright red. blood-soaked chest.
Does he not hurt?
"That's just a verbal agreement of the parents." Ji Mingyue said, "There is no contract, no token, and even if it is not serious, it is just a casual talk between two mothers holding their infant children. What kind of marriage contract is this?
" Who would take her as my brother's fiancee?"
"I will, it's fine for me." Shen Yan said lightly, "No matter how joking at the time, when this remark was mentioned among my classmates, I had to think of the possibility. ——"
"If there are forty people in a class, there are about seven hundred people in an age, and there are no more than twenty fiancees or marriage contracts. If I really want to fall in love, why not from the other six? Choose from 180 people."
"Some of them are women." Ji Mingyue reminded her.
It makes no sense, Shen Yan is also a woman.
"Women are also much better than men with marriage contracts." Shen Yan looked at him and didn't think it was a problem.
"Ji Zhaoyang was like you said at the time, you really don't need to care, maybe you can achieve a happy event of hugging from side to side, but it's unbearable for me." This is somewhat sarcastic.
"You can doubt anything, but it's best not to doubt his sincerity for you, because he has already proven himself." Ji Mingyue's soft face revealed a bit of indifference, and her hand pressed the bleeding artery.
Shen Yan knew that he definitely didn't want to hear him say that.
But, "Anyway, I rejected him and decided to distance myself from him." She breathed a little.
"The next day, I heard rumors in the school that he confessed to me that he was actually making a bet with his classmates. If he won the bet, he called me into the lecture hall of the school to laugh at it. If the bet lost... he would pay The other party has a luxury car."
"I saw it..." Shen Yan said, she clenched her hand, the soft flesh of her palm was cut by the glass slag and there were scars everywhere, it was very painful, "It's a very beautiful car. A red sports car."
"As a result, he actually dared to come to me and show his love to me." Thinking back after so many years, Shen Yan could not forget the pain and anger at that time.
He was actually being played like that.
"I'll tell him..." Tears soaked his eyelashes, more like a natural expression of his body than sadness.
"I will promise him unless he dies."
"He committed suicide." Ji Mingyue said these four words calmly, feeling her heart aching.
My brother...for this reason...was dying when he was sent to the hospital.
"When I went to play with him back then, I had a ball in my hand. After opening the door, I saw a thin layer of water on the floor of his room. I shouted to my brother to walk in, opened the bathroom to stop it, and found that He was lying in the bathtub with his eyes closed, and the water in the bathtub was stained with blood—"
"He was thinking about you before he died. And you didn't even go to his funeral!"
Ji Mingyue's voice rose for the first time .
Shen Yan took a step back.
"What were you thinking at the time?" Ji Mingyue turned her face away from looking at her, and was seriously injured.
It's also a lie... I was thinking of this at the time...
Shen Yan couldn't answer Ji Mingyue.
She actually didn't feel much at the time. On the one hand, she felt that Ji Zhaoyang was lying again, and it was impossible for him to die. Maybe he would be happy to play Shen Yan at the funeral; on the other hand, she felt that it was true... .
But as I am now, it is really evil and evil.
Shen Yan felt that the world was really ironic.
"It's not over yet." Shen Yan avoided talking. "Later, I became acquainted with the owner of the red car and asked him about it."
"He told me that it was his birthday and it was given to him by his mother. His birthday present."
"It's real. The birthday is real, and the gift is real."
Ji Mingyue asked, "The rumors—"
"He's real, the rumors are fake. I... deceived."
"But they shouldn't have thought that the result would be so serious. I still remember who the two people who deliberately said this in my ear at that time, I can tell you."
"Gao Mantong, Lin Wanjun."
Shen Yan felt that his words had already been said. is very clear.
"You are really a vicious woman, do you want to drag others along with you when you suffer?" Ji Mingyue is really smart, and her words are soft but not pleasant.
Shen Yan smiled bitterly.
Who would have thought that a word from high school could be involved so many years later?
But since Shen Yan already had the determination to die, and he did encounter these... As the first and worst promoters, Shen Yan didn't think they should escape.
When referring to the meaning of Emperor Jing of Han and Zhi Du (from Wikipedia)
, when Emperor Jing of the Han Dynasty, Zhi Du became a general, dared to speak bluntly to the court, and convinces people in person at the court. He once followed Emperor Jing to Shanglin Garden, when Emperor Jing's palace servant Jia Ji went to the toilet, and the wild boar suddenly broke into the toilet. Emperor Jing motioned for Zhi Du to go to the rescue with his eyes, but Zhi refused to act. Emperor Jing wanted to save Jia Ji himself with a weapon, but Zhi Du knelt in front of Emperor Jing and said, "If you lose a concubine, another concubine will enter the palace. Will there be a shortage of people like Jia Ji in the world? Even if your majesty looks down on yourself, But what about the ancestral temple and the queen mother?" Emperor Jing turned around, and the wild boar also left. Empress Dowager Dou heard about this and rewarded Zhidu with 100 catties of gold, and Emperor Jing valued Zhidu from then on.
What Shen Yan meant was that he was not the emperor, it was not important, and Qi Peibai was not as loyal to her as Zhi Du, believing that she was above everything else, so of course she was unworthy.
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