forced to be loved (nph)

decide to divorce

"Xie Jingming, I think..."
Shen Yan said coldly, wanting to cut off the relationship directly.
She is very calm, and let the calm dominate her, so that the expression on her face does not change, but her heart is like a rolling sea, ready to drown everything at any time, Shen Yan holds the phone tightly, hurting words to say, lips Zhang slightly, his heart moved, but he pressed down to refuse to listen.
Xie Jingming's voice was hidden on the other side of the world, no matter whether he was eloquent or quick-witted, there was nothing he could do in this situation. The hard-hearted person could benefit from it, and the soft-hearted person was often moved by kindness. , but if a person refuses to even communicate from the source, then no matter how delicate his mind is, it will not be of any use, he is nothing but caught in this predicament.
Xie Yizhen is not unhappy about the situation caused by her own hands, and she is also a little sad, not for others, but for herself. This child is really a heart made of iron and copper, a sword and a cluster of flowers, everything makes her feel a little unhappy, When he is weak, he pretends to be tolerant, kicks people away immediately if he can do it a little bit, often makes a ruthless gesture, and never makes himself sad. As an elder and an admirer of the same woman, he is very aware of Jingming's feelings for her. The young man's heart is hot and sincere. Although Xie Yizhen is also willing to take care of Shen Yan with a secret and well-known mind, However, he is indifferent by nature, and he treats his relatives, himself, and his lover the same. He likes other people's wives and is rejected, and things stop here. The only thing Xie Yizhen did to the woman he loved in his life was that he kissed her once, only once, and he would never be very enthusiastic.
Shen Yan was still standing in her original position. She had just woken up from a dream, and there was still a little sleepiness in her eyes, which made her eyes look foggy, which was quite pitiful. She has a beautiful appearance, does not laugh and sneers makes people tempted, mistakenly thinks that her features are affectionate and her character is docile. At this time, he raised his hand, "Xie Yizhen, here it is." His voice was flat, and there was almost no hint of happiness or anger.
Xie Yizhen took it, the phone kept popping up messages and calls from another person, just looking at it was annoying, he put it aside, frowned, thinking about whether to obey the identity of the elders, pretending to say something, in a light tone Some persuaded her, but they were very reluctant in their hearts. In a rare moment of hesitation, Shen Yan turned to look at him, "Xie Yizhen."
"...Huh?"
"What do you think about me and Xie Jingming, we look like a loving couple?" Her eyes fell quietly on Xie Yizhen's face, more intoxicating than the wine made by the moonlight , Xie Yi really couldn't drink the short-lived warmth in her eyes, and couldn't help frowning, "Do you want me to say that your relationship is okay?"
"Ha, is this what you have in mind?" She smiled as if mockingly, but then Smile is to treat yourself.
"No." He replied, "You are not suitable."
"Where is it not suitable?" Shen Yan asked immediately, his attitude almost seemed aggressive.
"It doesn't fit anywhere. - This is my idea, what about yours?" He was a little uncomfortable with the woman's attitude, as if the remaining emotions had been unknowingly consumed with the passage of time, and the only thing left The only thing left is the deliberate cold treatment of each other after the two fell out in the past. It has already happened once, and Xie Yizhen will never personally facilitate the second time.
"I..." She fell silent.
"Do you love him?" Xie Yizhen asked, this question was so vulgar and boring, so vulgar that he was so sure of the answer he wanted to hear, veto, betrayal, never, deceive... If Shen Yan said that, he would be very happy of.
"What?" Shen Yan asked back, as if he didn't hear clearly.
"Do you love him?" Xie Yizhen was very patient and asked again, the question made Shen Yan smile slightly, "Maybe." She didn't look at the man's face, but looked out the window, so quiet and peaceful , human feelings also clearly show that they are nothing more than a product worth mentioning in the universe, "I used to think I loved Jingming, after all, our married life was actually quite happy. But in fact, I don't know who I liked, Or if no one has liked it, maybe there is no difference." Shen Yan will only be with people who are good to her, and she has never paid attention to her own emotions, because she likes this kind of emotion slightly, how is it possible Overwhelmed by constant and stable mental pleasure?
Of course, to put it a bit harsher, this also proves that Shen Yan cannot accept equal love. What she can accept can only be what others offer her. Like a set machine, she does not have the willingness and ability to give others the same affection.
——Can't do it, character and environment from childhood to adulthood are doomed to this.
Xie Yizhen smiled slightly. He listened to Shen Yan's complaints about the relationship between husband and wife, and still tried his best to maintain a casual appearance. He would never let himself appear disappointed and dissatisfied, like a defeated dog. This was given to him with dignity. Require.
So, do you want to stop here?
Just like in the past few years, leave the familiar homeland and move to another place to live, away from the place where you grew up and the only blood relatives left, away from... her. The decision that was easy to make at the time is now faced again, but Xie Yizhen no longer thinks he can accept it.
At this moment, Shen Yan's voice seemed to be firm, she looked at the man, and said seriously, "Xie Yizhen, I have decided to divorce."
"...Huh? So you ask me what I think of your relationship with Jingming? Divorce is serious. Is it right?" The voice was a little erratic, obviously it should be regarded as happy news for him, but Xie Yizhen was full of... doubts? No, it's more complicated.
"No." Shen Yan shook his head, "I just think... In fact, it's okay to get divorced. And..." At this time, she showed a sincere and bitter smile, "Xie Chunfeng and Xie Shanbai, they won't tell you everything." In countless dark nights, in her bleak pupils and wet red passion, the words they said meant something that seemed to be just pure intimidation, and seemed to be provoking the husband and wife between her and Xie Jingming. relation. In any case, although Shen Yan told herself not to believe it, it was not that she never thought about it. Her fear did not come from liking herself to frighten herself, but from the suspicion hidden in her heart.
Xie Yizhen heard her words, but rarely frowned, and said in a deep voice, "What else are they hiding from me, which is related to Jingming?" Otherwise, why would it not be obvious, and the couple who had a good relationship before the car accident went directly to the step of divorce. Although Yi Zhen had the idea of ​​keeping Xie Jingming far away and keeping away from the relationship between husband and wife, this was just out of a man's nature. However, it has been so smooth that it is no longer lucky, but weird, and weird to the extreme.
"Don't ask." Shen Yan shook his head, looking tired and unwilling to repeat this matter, "Since I have made up my mind, I will wait until one day to see him, and him..." The answer is self-evident.
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