Salem x Devland

Chapter 31

Salem's POV
I laid in my bed. I hate myself soo fucking much. I feel soo empty. I heard a knock on my door. I quickly wiped my eyes. The door opened revealing my mom. "Salem honey. I'm going to the hospital to pick up Ozzy. Wanna come?" She asked. I needed to go. But my mom hates me and I know it. "Um sure" I said. She smiled and said "great. Get dressed and meet me downstairs. We'll get breakfast after we pick up Ozzy" "ok" was all I said. My mom walked out and I started getting ready. I really didn't care what I looked like. I just put on black jeans and a random sweater. I didn't want my mom to see the cuts.

I went downstairs and saw my mom waiting by the door. "Ready?" She asked with a smile. I nodded. We walked to her car and got in. I was soo scared that my mom would see the cuts. "Are you excited? We're bringing Ozzy home" my mom said happily. I knew it. I know she doesn't want me anymore. "Um yea" I said. I tried to use a happy tone. "Luis is gonna meet us there. He wants to see Ozzy" she said. She had a smile on her face. Fuck. I felt like I had to cry. I wanted to soo bad. But I couldn't. I didn't want my mom to think I didn't love her. I love her with all my heart. I just want her to be happy. That's all I want.

We got to the hospital and I saw Luis. He was alone. "Hey" he said to me and my mom. He gave my mom a hug then hugged me. "I wanna see Ozzy" I said looking towards my mom. She smiled at me and said "of course. Come on" "ok" I said quietly. We got to my sister's room. They said she had the baby. When my mom walked in she instantly handed the baby to her. "Oh Salem wants to hold him" my mom said. My sister didn't hesitate to give me Ozzy. It kind of made me angry that she's treating him like this. But everyone's different I guess. The second I looked down at Ozzy my heart melted.

I don't think I've ever felt myself smile so much. He was soo beautiful. He smiled back at me and it was the cutest thing ever. "Hello" I said to him in a baby voice. He smiled more when I started talking. "Aww he's beautiful" Luis said walking towards me. He had an astonished look on his face. I should've expected that. I mean he's gonna be Ozzy's dad now. Not me. I handed Luis the baby and walked out of the room. "Salem where are you going? We're about to leave if the medical stuff is bothering you" my mom said. She softly placed her hands on my shoulder. "Um ok. Sorry" I said.

Why do I keep fucking up?

I watch as Luis played with Ozzy. My mom had a smile on her face. I can see them being Ozzy parents. I don't even have a boyfriend or girlfriend. I'm such a fuck up. "Salem we're leaving" my mom said snapping me out of my thoughts. We walked out of the hospital and I felt somewhat better. I walked to my moms car and waited for her to unlock it. "Salem can you sit in the back seat with Ozzy? I want him to have some company" my mom said sweetly. I nodded and got into the back seat. We already had a car seat for Ozzy so my mom buckled him up. Once she was done she got into the drivers seat and started driving somewhere to get food. I didn't really know or care.

I just wanted to go home.

Time skip~

We got home and I felt terrible. I wanted to hold Ozzy and just be there for him but I'm scared. I walked up to my room. I was about to open my door when someone asked "Hey buddy. I'm gonna be staying here for a little bit. Um do you want Ozzy up here with you?". It was Luis. "Um no you guys should keep Ozzy in there. It's probably better for him" I said seriously. Luis looked confused. "Um he'll be fine either way. But um you look tired. Get some rest. Ok?" He asked. I nodded and walked into my room. I want to go to sleep but I'm not. I need to go see Richie. Maybe I can cool off there instead of by myself. Richie usually helps me.

I packed a bag of clothes for myself and walked downstairs. "Where are you going honey?" My mom asked. She was sitting on the couch with Ozzy and Luis. "Um Richie's house" I said walking over to the couch. I bent over and gave Ozzy a kiss on the head. "I'll be back" I said. I probably wasn't coming back anytime soon. I wanted my mom to be happy with Ozzy and Luis. I walked outside and got into my truck. I back out of the garage and started driving to Richie's house. Hopefully Xavier isn't there. Don't get me wrong. I love Xavier. He's perfect for Richie. And he's like another best friend to me but I don't want to get him roped up into my life. He already has his own family problems to deal with.

Richie's POV
I was in my room watching tv. Xavier was here but he left a while ago. All of a sudden I heard my door open. I looked over and it was Salem. He never said he was coming over. "Hey what are you doing here?" I asked. He looked sad. "Richie I'm not going back home" he said seriously. He put his bag down and laid on my bed. I got up and laid down by him. "Why not?" I asked. He looked at me with a frown. He sighed and said "Richie I can't go back home. Ever since Ozzy was born- I love him soo much but my mom- I think she wants to start a new life with Luis and take Ozzy. I'm soo fucking scared. Ozzy's my baby" Salem said. He started crying. I felt terrible. I wrapped my arms around him. This usually calms him down.

After a while of laying down with Salem he sat up. "Richie I'm staying here. I can't go back home" he said. Oh hell no. "Salem you can't stay at my house. Ozzy needs you. Your mom needs you" I said. I saw Salem's face go angry. "Fine. I didn't wanna stay here anyways" he said. He got up and grabbed his bag. I stood up and said "Salem don't do this-" "shut the fuck up" he said cutting me off. I opened my door and just walked out. I just sat there. I don't understand why he's acting like this. He's never said anything like that to me.

Salem's POV
I was driving home. I felt tears go down my face. I just wanted to be alone. I pulled into my driveway but didn't get out of my truck. I took a few deep breaths. I finally got out of my truck and walked inside. I saw Luis holding Ozzy. He was playing with him and it was soo cute. I felt my heart sink. I can't be Ozzy's dad. "Oh hey Salem. Wanna take Ozzy to your room?" Luis asked. I just shook my head and walked upstairs and into my room. I changed into more comfortable clothes. I looked at my arms. It's ok. Maybe it'll be better tomorrow. I got into my bed and went to sleep.

To be continued~
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