Chaos (Colby Brock)

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I walked into the bedroom, praying Colby wouldn't follow me.

I didn't want to talk to him.

I knew that this trip was just a weird ploy to get me to be more submissive. He didn't care about me and didn't care about my feelings.

It was all a lie.

A stupid lie that my stupid self fell for.

"Jules?" Devyn asked as she knocked on the door. "Hmm?" I hummed and looked up at it.

"You okay?" She asked as I nodded. "Yeah, just tired. I'm gonna take a bath." I said and stood up.

"I'm sorry Colby left. I know it can be scary that he's gone." She said as I shrugged. "It's not a big deal." I said with a sigh.

"Well if you need anyone to talk to, we're gonna be out here for a little while." She said with a smile.

"Thanks Devyn, I appreciate that." I said then turned and went towards the bathroom as she left the room.

When I got in there I looked in the mirror to see the hickeys that riddled my skin.

I felt sick to my stomach, being marked with something that was supposed to be made with love and attraction.

I was in lust with Colby, loving the way he was so gentle with me and how attractive he was.

It made me forget that he didn't care for me. He only wanted to keep me safe to protect his gang.

He would throw me to the side the second things died down. I don't think he would let me go but he would treat me like garbage.

My entire life I was meant to feel like that.

When dad would go to work mom would hit me. She would tell me I was worth nothing in the world and that she wished she never had me.

My dad would put me first sometimes and mom would lose her mind.

I got used to the pain. I got used to being beaten around.

I got used to be worthless.

I frowned to myself then went and turned the faucet on for the tub.

I looked over to see that there was some bubble bath on the counter which I was grateful.

"Perfect." I whispered and put some in the hot water, watching as the suds bubbled up.

Once the tub was filled I got in, letting myself relax.

I hated that I was worried about Colby. It must have been something serious that was happening if he couldn't wait until tomorrow to leave.

"He's an asshole, Jules." I mumbled to myself, closing my eyes and leaning my head back.

Was he though?

What if something was happening with my family and he was rushing to their aid.

I didn't want that to be the case.

The thought of it alone sent my body into a panic. If they were in danger I needed to be with them.

I tried to enjoy my bath as best as I could but there was fear sitting in my chest that made it nearly impossible.

I ended up staying up all night. Different scenarios playing in my head as to where Sam and Colby went.

Maybe I could get Jake and Corey to tell me.

"Jules?" Jake asked as he knocked on my door. "Hmm?" I asked and looked at the door. "We're leaving in an hour. The girls wanted to stop at a couple stores before we left." He explained as I nodded.