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CHAPTER 19: Lost

PORCHAY'S POV

Walking outside without guards surrounding me is the best thing ever, it's been so long since I walked like this, not feeling uneasy knowing a bunch of men watch me from afar.

P'Kinn knows I won't stop bugging him if he sends a single guard to watch me. I gained his trust, I've been doing well in all of my training so they know I could protect myself when something happens, at least what I learned in the training would help buy time for them to rescue me.

I laid down on the grass beside the river and looked up at the starry night. I wish I could be like the stars, billions of people watch them from afar and yet they look unbothered. I can't restrain myself from questioning how I get involved in this? Since when did lots of people watch me? There's lots of reasons why but I can't choose one.

I felt someone laid beside me, I was alarmed but I stayed calm.

"What are you thinking?" I looked at him, he's also looking at the sky.

"Cau.." He then rested his elbow on the ground and faced me.

"You don't look okay, you just go here when you're feeling down or thinking about something. Is there something bothering you?" he asked me.

I shook my head. "Nothing, khrup. I was just taking a break from everything."

"I'll always be here, ready to listen na." He smiled at me, I nodded and continued looking at the sky.

"Cau, what does it feel like to be in this kind of family?

"What do you mean, Chay?"

"Your men guard you all the time, there's lots of people watching you from afar that you don't even know who. Your life's always in threat, not knowing who and why would they kill you."

" This is what power can do, Chay. There are a bunch of men guarding you, harming you, or watching you from afar that you don't know who, because of power. They want to protect or steal the power you have."

"How did you live from this, Cau?"

"I was born in this situation, Chay. I don't have a choice but to live with this."

I sighed heavily. Cau held my hand and squeezed it.

"Time will pass, Chay. I know you'll get used to it." I just nodded.

"I have to go, Chay. You're not going back yet? I'll take you home."

"Not yet, Cau. You go back first, I'll just stay here for a while. I can go home by myself, don't worry." He nodded, I just closed my eyes to relax but Cau suddenly bent down and kissed my forehead before he left. He caught me off guard, I was shocked for a moment, why would he do that? Nevermind, It's a friendly forehead kiss, I think. Hia and my other Phi's are also doing that, so I won't give a fuss about it, for now.

*A MOMENT LATER*

Cau left hours ago, I am still here and haven't gone back home, I have nothing else to do anyways. I am still closing my eyes savoring the moment of this beautiful night when I heard someone walking near me.

"Khun Porchay, Khrup." He is one of the guards of the main family.

"What brings you here?"

"Khun Kim was being followed by one of that guy's men, Khrup"

"What do they want from him?"

"As of now, I still don't know, Khrup. Do you want me to go there, Khrup?"

"No, I'll handle that guy. Let's go back to the mansion."

"Yes, Khrup." I stood up then he followed me.

I got back home and as usual, Hia, P'Kinn, P'Khun were waiting for me at the main lounge, by the looks of P'Khun and Hia, they were frantically waiting.

Guess what's the first thing they checked when they saw me?

"Porchaaayyyy! My son, did anything happen to you? Are you okay?" P'Khun rushed to check on me and hugged me tight.

"I'm okay, Khrup P'Khun." Hia then joined the hug. I was away for just hours and they acted like this.

I just enjoyed their embrace, I know they were so worried.

I still don't know what to do with my life. They assured me, with regards to this business. I let Hia work even though I don't want to. I talked to P'Kim and acted like nothing happened even if the scar's still there. It feels like I was just living a normal life a moment ago, me and Hia were happy with just the two of us, I was happy knowing that he was working his dream job. P'Kim tutored me, he was my idol, I still remember how happy I am knowing that my idol was teaching me, and gave me a good response to my confession. I was happily living my life, not knowing all the lies they hid from me.

Not knowing the truth from them, but from others.

If nothing happened to me, will they continue lying behind my back?

Will P'Kim ignore me and I'll just keep idolizing him from afar?

Should I just get used to this new life they created for me? And just be the Porchay they cherish so much or should I do otherwise?

(A/N: I'm back everyone! I hope y'all are doing well. Thank you for waiting and thank you for the greetings. All your greetings were appreciated. I am very grateful to everyone, we're almost at 40k reads, that's the best birthday gift ever. Who do you think is the mystery guy? Is Macau still acting suspicious? What will Porchay choose with his life?)