𝗠𝗮𝘆𝗯𝗲 𝗜 𝗡𝗲𝗲𝗱 𝗬𝗼𝘂 𝗧𝗼 𝗦𝗮𝘃𝗲 𝗠𝗲 (𝘙𝘰𝘮𝘢𝘯𝘰𝘨𝘦𝘳𝘴 𝘈𝘜) ❶

Chapter 43

"Where the fuck could Steve Rogers be hiding?!" Natasha yelled irritable to no one in particular.

Nat popped down onto the couch when they returned home from their Steve Rogers' hunt. Nat had tried calling him times in a row with no luck, and she was getting tired of hearing his voicemail message. While Natasha tried getting through to Steve telephonically once more, Jane was trying to get through the doorman of the Rogers' building. But Kevin was refusing to let them in since none of the Rogers was there.

Finally, the two girls had given up for the day and headed back to the dorm with pizza and beer.

"Natasha you may have to accept the fact that he doesn't want anyone to find him right now." Jane replied "I mean things really have been really bad between the two of you the last couple of weeks. He probably just needs some time to get his head straight."

"I know that Jane! Believe me I know." Natasha sighed heavily "I've said the most terrible things to him. Things I really regret now. But..." Natasha began only to be cut off by Jane.

"It's obvious that your last conversation sent him over the breaking point, Natasha. It's the only explanation for his disappearing act." Jane said without malice
'No that can't be it, Jane. As horrible as what I said to him was the last time we spoke it wasn't any different from the things I've said to him before.' Nat trailed off suddenly. "Holy shit! No it can't be possible!?' Natasha suddenly stood up, and began pacing. 'No! No! He must have somehow heard what I said to him."

Natasha was panicking, and muttering to herself while Jane watched in confusion.

"Heard what?" Jane asked "Nat…heard what?"

"When I was talking to Pepper…" Natasha stopped pacing and threw her hands up the air "Oh God….I shouldn't have said those things! Why did I say those things, Jane!? WHY?! I wasn't thinking….I promise Jane I wasn't….Oh God…Oh God….I didn't mean it!...And he must have heard me! Oh NO" Natasha said fretfully. "Jane I'm so screwed!"

"Natasha!" Jane yelled, trying to get her attention "What exactly did you say?"

Natasha took a deep breathe, her eyes filling with tears thinking back on what she had said and the realization that Steve must have heard her. Her heart was pounding so hard she thought she might actually have a heart attack. "I said terrible things, Jane! I wasn't thinking! I just wanted to get Pepper off my back! I was so tired of her 'I hate Steve Rogers' speech that I basically just agreed with her. And he must have heard me! That's why he left his necklace at my door step. Oh Jane, I really screwed up bad this time!"

Jane shook her head sadly while listening to Natasha's words, these two people really had hurt each other badly. It broke her heart for them. There had been so many misunderstandings, jumps to conclusion, and hurtful words between the two of them that she just didn't know if they could get past it.

"Jane….I swear I didn't mean any of what I've said! I was just so hurt, and scared." Natasha dropped back down to the couch now exhausted by her realization. "I just want him back, Jane….I just want him back….." Natasha said it so sincerely that Jane's own eyes filled with tears at her friend's declaration.

"Then get him back, Natasha!" Jane said simply.

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After five days of lying in bed in a haze of self-pity, Steve now found himself aimlessly walking the streets of Manhattan. He had spent his day wandering around the city trying to figure out a way to get through to Natasha. Over the course of the day he had realized that everywhere he looked something reminded him of her. Instead of breaking his heart as he had expected it had only strengthened his resolve to get her back. She really was a part of him. Even his home was filled with memories of her. They were tethered. She was his home, and home was where the heart is. She was his heart. It wouldn't truly start beating again until he got her back. With a confidence he hadn't felt in weeks, Steve decided it was time to get his Natasha back.