always | gojou satoru [rewriting]

chapter 36 - he's not the one for you

It has been a week since Satoru sent you a text saying that you should be careful and you had been very cautious of your surroundings ever since, just in case. Even though he didn't mention what happened, you could actually guess it must've been his mother or Erika involved.

Besides that, Suguru and you were not as active as before. He didn't reply as fast as he used to be, and he kept saying that he was busy taking care of his grandmother so you understood.

You kinda missed talking or going out to dates with him.

Shrugging those thoughts away, you continued vacuuming your room while listening to some random songs you played on Spotify. You haven't cleaned your room for so long...

You then halted when the song you were listening to stopped, and your phone began to rang. Sighing, you reached out to your phone and saw the name Nobara so you excitedly picked it up.

"Hey." you greeted her.

(Y/n, you're not going to believe me)

"What is it?"

(I swear I saw them together! I'm not hallucinating)

"Hold on, who did you see?"

(Bitch, I'm coming over to your place right now. Wait for me)

"Hey, wait up. What's going on?"

(I just need you to see it. I snapped a few pictures and I want you to see it. I'll be there in 15 minutes)

"Okay..."

Nobara abruptly ended the call and your heart began pounding really fast. You had to put aside the vacuum since you couldn't focus on cleaning your room anymore, so you waited for Nobara patiently at the living room while watching cat videos to calm you down.

20 minutes later, you heard the doorbell ringing and you immediately opened the door. Nobara was panting hard and randomly handed you a box of donuts.

"Here, I bought you this." she said.

"Thanks?" you took it and closed the door, "Tell me. What is it?"

"I had to run some errands earlier at Shibuya and bitch, I swear I saw them walking together. I fucking can't believe my eyes." she said while scrolling through her phone, "Is this familiar to you?"

The moment she showed you the picture, you felt as if an arrow was pierced into your chest.

"I have more." she began to slide left and more pictures were taken.

They were holding hands, and laughing. They looked so happy.

"That's clearly Suguru." Nobara said and seeing your reaction was painful for her to see. "Did he say anything to you?"

"No wonder." you replied and shrugged your shoulders, "I noticed he wasn't really texting me. He kept giving me excuses. Now I know why. Seems like he's not moving on from his ex-girlfriend."

"I'm really sorry to show you this butㅡ"

"I should be grateful to you." you cut her off and smiled at her, "Thanks for telling me."

"What are you going to do?" Nobara asked.

"I don't know. I'll deal with him later." you laughed, hiding the fact that you were in pain. "Hey, let's eat the donuts!"

Nobara stayed around for almost 4 hours, and you were really grateful for her existence. Before she left, she gave you a long hug to cheer you up.

After she left, you sat on the sofa and stared at the floor for a few minutes without realizing that you were actually crying.

"Shit, I hate this feeling." you mumbled while wiping away the tears with your hands.

Guess Suguru wasn't the one for you...

That motherfucker.

You then decided to call your mom and hoped you could feel better.

"Mom." you called out to her after she picked up the call.

(Sweetie, how are you?)

"Mom." your voice began to crack.

(Hey, are you okay? You sound weird)

"He cheated on me."

(What? Suguru cheated on you?)

"Yeah. I don't know what to feel. It hurts so much but I know I shouldn't be wasting my tears for a man like that."

(Y/n, that motherfucker doesn't deserve you. Oh my god. I can't believe this. Can I call him? I have his damn number)

"N-No, it's fine. Let me handle it. I guess I don't deserve to be happyㅡ"

(Bullshit, Y/n. Everyone deserves to be happy. Please don't say that again)

"Okay, sorry. What should I do now?"

(Don't stay in your room all day. Go out, meet people or find any hobbies you can do. It'll distract you, I promise you that. I don't want you to cry anymore, okay?)

"Okay, I'll try. Thank you, mom."

(Come over when you have the time. Let's spend some time together)

"Sure, mom. Love you."

(Love you more!)

Just when you ended the call, you bursted out crying again. Having your mom and Nobara in your life was truly a blessing.

"Okay, Y/n. Stop crying or you're a fucking loser." you told to yourself and slapped your cheeks. "I'm the strongest!" you began to continue cleaning your room, and the whole house to distract yourself. But, you ended up crying again and again. Suguru was your first love and first boyfriend, but it didn't end like the way you wanted it to be... Who wouldn't be sad?

While sinking into your own thoughts, you were surprised to hear someone ringing the doorbell. You sighed, wiping the tears with your hands and managed to look at the mirror first before opening the door.

As you opened the door, Kento was standing in front of you with a paper bag in his hand. You looked at him and noticed he was wearing an apron, which made you smile.

"Hi there, househusband." you almost giggled. "What brings you here?"

"I tried making Aloo Gobi, an Indian dish. It tasted good and I wanted you to try it too." he said, handing you the paper bag. "I even made some flat bread to eat with it."

"Wow, thank you so much." you smiled and took the bag from him. "I can't wait to try it."

"Are you okay?" he began to ask as he was eyeing your face. "Did you cry?"

"Whㅡ No, I didn't. I was cleaning my room and the dust got into my eyes." you lied, but Kento wasn't buying it for sure. "I'm serious, Kento."

"You definitely cried." he frowned, "Stop lying."

"He cheated. That's it." you blurted out.

Kento just stared at your face for a few minutes, and let out a loud sigh. "No wonder you cried." he then placed a hand on your back and patted gently, "It's okay, Y/n. He's not the one for you. I'm sure you'll meet a better person soon. Trust me."

"Yeah, I hope so. Don't worry about me. I'm fine." you smiled at him.

"You should eat now before it gets cold." Kento changed the subject, "I'm sure it'll make you feel better at how delicious it is. If you want more, feel free to come over to my place."