Syn's Random Thoughts

; to her

Hello, again.

Before may sabihin mga friends ko shh muna okay. I just have to. Also, hindi ko ito ginagawa dahil aug 1 or gf day keme. Hindi na nga kami e lol. But she deserve to be appreciated as well.

She was the best part of my life. It was the best 10 months of my life as well. It was well made because we fought, we tried, but suddenly we gave up. But still, it's fine. That's life. Not always strong, not always panalo sa battles. It's okay, it's fine.

She was the main source of my happiness.

She's brave. She is not always strong, but she fought and is still fighting. She's messy but easy to love. She was there when I needed her and felt dead inside. She was there when I couldn't decide what flavor of milk tea I should get or what dress i should buy.

She was there when I was panicking about my grades. She was there when the people around me pressured me about my grades.

She used to be my comfort zone, my home.

She still is, it's just that I don't know if it's the same with me.

Nevertheless, I'm happy.

Even if my heart still aches whenever i see her online pero hindi kami naguusap, even if minsan i overthink, what if hindi na niya inaabangan mga tula, storyang ginagawa ko? Does she know that she is still my pen? Na hindi nagbago, hindi nawala. Na for me sya padin'. Call me stupid, tanga but I'm just loving someone.

Does she think about me too? Did she ever want to ask if I was okay? Did she ever think of chatting me up? Whenever I am awake, that's all i think about. Whenever I'm not distracted, they linger in my mind. Especially the what-ifs. What if you find someone new? What if one day i'll wake up and I'm not the one you tweet about. Of course, I need to be okay with that. At least I have too. I have no right na magreklamo.

Anyways, my moon i will survive. I hope you heal your wounds. I'm glad I was loved by you. You are the best part of my life. One of the best. You are my greatest and this time I'm sure.

I'm proud of her. She's my moon. Keep fighting, Padayon, my future engineer.