My Best Friend | Kaedehara Kazuha x Reader

chapter 8 - jealousy and anger

- language warning -

not sure how to phrase this but uh TW for uh like self doubt? self insulting? i'm not sure what to describe it as.

Y/N's POV

Me and Kazuha decided to leave the archipelago islands early, the others said they'd be there for another 2 weeks but honestly, the amount of water and sand there was making me feel icky, not to mention that I haven't been able to take an actual shower since we got there.

We arrived back in Mondstadt at around 8pm, Kaeya had offered to lend Kazuha a spare guest room at the Knights headquarters while I shared his room with him.

I'm laying on my stomach on his couch right now, reading this book called Princess Mina of the Fallen Nation, volume 3.

The idea of sleeping in the same room as the Cavalry Captain did make my nerves spiral out of control. How bad could it be though? I am his girlfriend after all, this is a normal thing, I've slept in the same bed as so many people, this shouldn't feel any different.

"Doll, can you come in here for a second?" I hear Kaeya call out to me.

"Coming!" I yell back, putting my book down.

I walk into his office room.

"Can you help me organise the maps that you collected?" he asked with a smile.

I nod and stand next to his chair.

He pats his thigh for me to sit down, I accept, my face going pink.

Kaeya chuckles, wrapping his arms around my waist and resting his chin on my shoulder as I organise the maps that I made when I was at the archipelago.

"Huh.. so they've changed from last year? Why's there thorns on this one? And why does this one change what nation it's from? Why has this one got a giant castle on it and why does this one have star puzzles?" He mumbled.

"Each island had a mirage for each person who went, other than me and the traveller, the one with thorns is Xinyan's, the one that changes it's nation is Kazuha's, the giant castle obviously belongs to the 'prinzessin der verurteilung' and the one with star and astrology puzzles is Mona's, we don't know how the mirages got there but we have an idea that they were connected to some Fatui researcher's machine that we had to fix." I explain.

"I see, well, let's work on this in the morning, eh?" he suggests, kissing my cheek.

I nod and stand up from his lap, he gets up after me, pushes the chair in his desk and leads me to his private bedroom where I was reading earlier.

"Whether you're comfy with sleeping in the same bed as me or not is up to you, but if not, I'll take the couch." he says, comforting my nerves a bit.

"I don't mind sleeping with you." I say with a small smile.

"Oh?" Kaeya smirks.

"NOT LIKE THAT YOU DIRTY PERV" he laughs as I yell at him.

Kazuha's POV

It's not fucking fair that he's with her right now and I'm not. He's not right for her, I am.

What if they're kissing right now?

Or worse, fucking?

It should be me. Not him.

My anger gets the better of me and I throw my book at the wall. It's one that Y/N let me borrow, I brought it for her two years ago.

Shit. I'm so pathetic..

I lean back against the wall. I feel my body sinking down.

My arms rest on my knees and I curl up into the fetal position.