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(susan)
𝐖𝐄𝐒𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐒𝐈𝐋𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄for what felt like forever, it was nice when it was quiet, but not with him.
"i've been so blind lately." he broke the silence, i raised my head to look him in the eye. "i should've realized it before all of this mess happened." he leaned his head back.
"yeah, christina probably wouldn't be dead." i sighed under my breath, he didn't seem like her heard me so he kept going.
"i don't know what to say anymore." he rested his face in his palms, then he stood up.
"i love you!"
if i hadn't been there to hear him say it, i wouldn't have believed it. but he said it and it was out.
"i don't."
the silence was uncomfortable, almost scary. i wanted to start crying, why does he love me now? i don't love him anymore!
"oh." he breathed, standing up. "keep the things." he threw the bag he had been holding at me, and walked out the door.
maybe i was too straight forward. i'm so stupid.
he even saved me from socs and saved me from getting in trouble last night. all i knew right then, i needed sodapop curtis more than i have ever needed him before.
but it was too late, he was gone. i started to cry, then i realized i hadn't looked into the bag yet, it sure was heavy.
i took out the first thing i saw. flowers. just like i had planned on giving him that day at the dx. i shook away the memory.
i placed the flowers next to me and grabbed the next thing. chocolate cake, my favorite cake. i was closer to tears than i had ever been before, but i fought them back.
the next thing was the prettiest bracelet i had ever saw. it had to be worth like twenty dollars!
i started to cry, no matter how hard i tried not to, it all poured down my cheeks. but there was one last thing left. a necklace.
it was prettier than the bracelet, something was carved into the heart.
i love you. this broke me. he loves me more than i thought he did a second ago. that was it, i was gonna go find him.
setting everything down, wiping my eyes, i tan out the door and down the street.
he didn't have work today, it was his day off as i remembered, so i ran up his front steps and barged through the door. there sat ponyboy, two-bit and johnny.
"susan? what's wrong?" ponyboy looked worried for me, so did johnny.
"soda. where's sodapop?" i asked frantically.
"not here." two-bit turned around to me from the floor. "dang! are all girls tears black or something?"
i wanted to hit him, but johnny held my shoulder back. "we'll help you find him." johnny smiled warmly, it would've made me feel better any other day, but not today.
"thank you, johnny." i hugged him, crying into his shoulder.
"come on!" ponyboy urged us, tugging on johnnys jacket collar.
i slammed the door shut, flipping two-bit off as i left. johnny and ponyboy were running behind me as i ran as if the devil was chasing me.
"soda!!" i kept calling out, even though i knew he wouldn't answer. my bottom lip started to quiver, and just when i was about to give up, i saw movement from the swing set at the lot.
i rushed over there, their back turned to me. he looked exactly like soda, he wore the same flannel soda did when he came to my house.
"soda!" i grabbed into him, causing him to stop rocking back and forth.
"susan? what's up?" he sniffled, his eyes were red and splotchy. i made him cry.
"i'm sorry, i still love you!" i sobbed into his shoulder, he patted my back gently.
"i love you too." he sighed. "i just never knew it because i was so caught up in all those other girls, that i never realized you."
"well. i'm glad it all worked out." i sniffled, pulling away from him, but he pulled me closer, culling my face with his hands.
"kiss me." he smirked, my heart started to race.
"what?" i stuttered.
"kiss me." he repeated, but i didn't get the chance, because he crashed out lips together, he was still cupping my face with his hands, i move my hands to his neck.
i've waited for this for the longest time, and now it was happening.
