Dark Secrets

Chapter 58

Alec could feel the first sunshines of the morning heat up his face and he slowly opened his eyes. He wanted to sit up but something or someone was pinning him down. Alec lifted his head looking around and a smile covered his face. Magnus head was resting on his chest and he had one arm tightly wrapped around Alec's waist like he was afraid Alec would vanish if he'd let go. Alec rose his hand slowly bringing it up to Magnus hair and he run his fingers through Magnus' messy hair. Usually Magnus hair was very dark but the sun made in turn to a shimmering brown golden.

The smile on Alec's face faded and he frowned. If Magnus was awake now he'd probably told Alec to stop if he didn't want to be wrinkly like old people. Alec was studying Magnus face like it was the most beautiful painting in an art gallery and he tried to save all the colors in his memory. He could feel Magnus heart beat in a slow pace and with the time passing by his heart found the same rhythm. Alec's breath slowed down and he could feel his eyes began to get heavy. His hand stopped to move caused by Alec drifting off to another peaceful sleep. He never did that. He was never able to fall asleep once he woke up. He had never been able to stay awake past the sunrise and yet he was deeply asleep when the sun reached it's highest point.

The next time Alec woke up he found himself alone in his bed which felt too big for himself for the first time since he got it. Alec rubbed his face and pulled the covers off his body. „Magnus?" Alec called through the hallway of his home but he didn't feel the smile while saying Magnus name. „Magnus?" Alec was walking downstairs hearing the echo of Magnus voice out of the kitchen. „Please call me back...I'm really worried. Love you Dad." Alec's body stood still when he heard- Magnus words. His blood froze in his veins, his lungs wouldn't wide and his heart refused to pump blood through his body. „You're awake." Magnus soft voice pulled Alec out of his gaze and he blinked with his eyes forcing his body to work properly. „Yeah." Like the solider he was Alec moved on like he didn't just realize it was time to bring out the monster in him everyone feared.

„You're hungry? I made breakfast." Magnus grabbed Alec's hand with the intention to pull him to the kitchen but his body startled surprised of the electric spark touching his skin. Alec took the chance and pulled Magnus closer to him theirs chest slightly bumping together. He lifted his hand that wasn't hold by Magnus and cupped Magnus soft cheek. He didn't loose time and brought their lips together kissing Magnus like he'd never been kissed before. Magnus heart was beating like the heart of a rabbit on the run and lost himself in the kiss. Alec didn't think he was strong enough to keep the dom inside him locked but something about Magnus made him want to be gentle. Something about Magnus smoothed the demon Alec thought was unable to be stopped. „Good morning." Alec whispered with a rough voice that caused Magnus knees to feel like jelly. „Go-od mor-ning." Magnus stuttered breathless and Alec chuckled enjoying the effect he had on the young man.

„You made breakfast?" Alec asked with a frown and Magnus nodded shyly leading Alec to the kitchen. „I tried to use all the leftovers...you shouldn't waste food." Alec didn't know what it was but he suddenly felt like there was a blanket wrapped around his heart making his heart of stone warm and cozy. „It looks amazing." Alec sat down on his usual place and together they enjoyed a quiet breakfast and even neither of them said a word it was a comforting silence. „We should go to you're place tomorrow and get more of your cloths...I mean I like it very much when you wear my cloths but I guess you'd be more comfortable in your own." Alec had to finally plan everything he tried to avoid for a while now but he could no longer do that. It was time now to face the problem and solve it.

„Or I should move back home...I really like it here but...I can't leave my dad. I don't even know how to explain what you and me have." Magnus didn't want it to sound like he didn't want to stay with Alec because he actually would never leave this place if he didn't have to. „You're right. I forget that eventually you have to go back home." Alec acted like Magnus would really go back home but he knew from now on Magnus wouldn't have a home anymore. He wouldn't  come home to his dad and he wouldn't hear his voice calling his name. „Then let's go there tomorrow? I drop you off after work." „Tomorrow is sunday." Magnus frowned and Alec shrugged. „Criminals never take a day off neither do I." Alec's voice was different than it used to be. It always had this cold and unbothered tone to it but suddenly his voice sounded like he was sorry for something. Magnus couldn't tell what it was but he wasn't unaware of the sudden change and deep down he knew something was off. „Alright." Magnus continued to eat his breakfast and after it he and Alec cleaned up the small mess. 

Alec was in his office making a few calls for tomorrow and during these calls he felt his stomach twisting. He never had a bad conscience but he couldn't shake it off this time. „You're sure this is a good idea? Have you thought about another plan?" Alec hated how Hao put even more guilt on his shoulder but the truth was Hao was just trying to protect them both. He was trying to protect Magnus from the unbearable pain and Alec from himself. „I thought about this enough. That's the only way he will be save and I'll do everything to protect him!" Alec couldn't allow himself to get his feelings in the way and he had to be the solider he was taught to be. Just once he really allowed himself to let the demon out that was locked up in the cage inside of Alec's mind.

„Okay. I'll be by your side then." Alec knew he could always count on Hao even they had their differences. Hao and Alec grew together like a family and just like a family they'd take a bullet for the other one. „Alexander?" Magnus was waiting for Alec to finish his business calls but the show he was watching got boring and he felt lonely. He knew Alec was only gone for maybe 2 hours but he already missed Alec's presence. „In here." Alec shouted taking a seat on his chair waiting for Magnus to step inside his office. „Sorry, I hope I didn't interrupt you." Magnus apologized a shy blush covering his cheek and Alec shook his head with a small smile. „I just finished one last call for today. Can I help you with anything?" Alec asked giving Magnus a look that made him go week. Even the people on the phone couldn't see him Alec still got ready as if they'd all were really here. He wore black suit pants and a white dressing shirt. He had the sleeves rolled up almost to his elbow and his hair was perfectly styled in it's usual messy kind of way. Magnus was lost in his gaze not realizing Alec had left his seat and headed to him.

„Magnus?" Alec's voice sounded so fare away like it was calling him in a dream and Magnus only stared at the man in front of him. Alec shook his head smiling with a glimmer in his eyes he never knew was there. „You want to go to the grocery store now?" Alec asked and Magnus was pulled out of his daydreams. „Y-yeah." Magnus was blushing to the gods, embarrassed he had been caught staring at Alec. „I'll get you some cloths and then we can get going." Alec passed Magnus and Magnus shut his eyes trying to calm down his racing heart without any success. Magnus was only 18 and he'd never had anyone looked at him like Alec did. Alec looked at him like Magnus was the sun and all planets circled him. He looked at him like he was the center of the universe. Magnus got dressed and hurried down the stairs where Alec was already waiting for him. They got in Alec's big black FBI SUV and headed to the grocery store.

It was a busy saturday and honestly Alec had never been more glad to come home even he spend months down in the desert for his solider training. A busy saturday in the grocery store exhausted him more than any war could. „That was hell." Magnus seemed just as exhausted as Alec and Alec nodded in agreement. „That's why I usually go in the middle of the week...it's less busy." Alec begun to put all the groceries in their place and Magnus tried to help him as well. „Alexander?" Magnus calling his full name gave Alec a feeling he couldn't put down in words. For him this feeling was new and it bothered him a little. „Mh?" „What are we?" Magnus didn't want to push his luck to fare but he needed to make sure that what he and Alec had wouldn't end once he left. He was afraid Alec would just continue his other flings and forget about him. Alec rested his hands on the counter and his eyes flicked over to Magnus. „Magnus." Alec's voice was low and more a breath and a actual sound. Magnus heart was beating in his chest like it was hunted by a demon and close to be eaten alive. „I can't promise you anything. I can't promise you to be the caring and loving man you deserve." Alec was really believing his words but during the short amount of time they had together Magnus had the chance to knew a Alec that was all that. He was caring and he was loving.

„I can promise to take a bullet for you tho. I can promise to protect you from anything that tries to hurt you...expect myself. I can't promise I won't hurt you with the way I am and I can't promise I will always be gentle and understanding...I can't promise you everyday I'll make it home alive." Alec was never a man of many words but he wanted Magnus to know what he was getting if he chose him. He wanted Magnus to see the real future he'd have with him in his life and not the future you see with the rose colored glasses. „I can live with that as long as you promise to at least try to stay alive." Magnus didn't know yet he would have more problems with Alec's life than he thought that moment but for now it was enough. „Okay I think I can promise you that." Alec chuckled a little giving Magnus goosebumps and he slowly scooted closer to Alec. „So what are we?" Magnus asked again needing a clear answer to his question and a devilish smile creeped on Alecs lips. „You can call me Master if you want to." Magnus eyes widened and his breath was taken away...