Dark Secrets

Chapter 44

"I just think you should talk with him... after all he lost a friend." Magnus suggested not wanting to make Matteo angry but he luckily he didn't have to worry because Matteo only sighed. "I'm a terrible boyfriend aren’t I?" Matteo asked taking a seat on the park bench. "What why the hell would you say that?" Magnus frowned sitting down next to Matteo whoes eyes were filling with tears. "Hao probably needed me and all I did was yell and be selfish. He was always there for me whenever I needed him and I... I screamed at him for only not wanting to worry me." Matteo’s voice was weak and Magnus could see the tears running down Matteos cheek. "Don't beat yourself up. You were scared that something had happened to him... you just love him to much that the thought of losing him makes you crippled with fear." Magnus wrapped an arm around Matteo’s shoulders and smiled softly at his friend. "He probably hates me now... he probably doesn't want to see me every again." Matteo spat out frustrated with his own behavior and Magnus had enough of the self pitty. "Get up! Right now!" Magnus demanded getting up on his own feet and Matteo just looked at him confused. "You, the idiot, will go right now and tell Hao how you feel. Love isn't easy. It's actually really fucking hard. You’ll have your ups and downs throughout the whole thing. You'll have major and minor arguments or misunderstandings. There will be moments when you guys will disagree and moments when you just want to scream and shout at each other. There will be moments when you guys are happy and moments when you guys make each other upset. There will be moments when you come to a realization that the person youre fighting with is actually the only person you want to be with. Because with everything you guys have gone through its all worth it because love is such a beautiful and passionate thing." Magnus’ words left Matteo and himself a little speechless but luckily Matteo figured it out and he didn’t have to try and explain himself. He figured out what he had to do and jumped up hugging Magnus tightly. "Thank you... thank you soo much, Magnus." Matteo exclaimed running off without another word and Magnus was left behind smiling to his friend glad that he had been able to help. But how could he talk about love like that when he had never experienced it himself. How could he have such powerful words in his head when he had never had a relationship? With an irritated sigh he threw himself down on the bench again and looked into the empty space ahead of him focusing on just breathing. What was Alec to him? Was he just a crush? Was he more? Should he let go of him or should he keep fighting. "Are you okay?" Suddenly there was a girl sitting down next to Magnus and he turned his head looking at her slightly startled. She had long black hair and these eyes... eyes that reminded him of someone but he didn't know who. "I guess. Rough week you know." Magnus replied with a slight smile and the young girl chuckled. "At least I'm not alone then." She chuckled her eyes slowly traveling to the tree where a little squirrel was running up the trunk. "Want to share? I think we feel better if we hear that someone else is more miserable than we are." Magnus didn't know what it was but this person looked so strongly like someone he knew and her presence wasn't awkward at all and he found more comfort than nervousness. "Well... I came all the way from New York to see someone that I thought was dead for the last 10 years. Now I'm here and I was standing in front of his apartment but then... All I could think about was how there was no way he would want to see any of us." Her voice shook towards the end and Magnus could hear the pain that was laced between her words clear as day. He saw how tears filled her eyes but she still held a smile on her ruby lips. "Wow... you thought he was dead for that long? How can something like that happen?" Magnus didn't want to be nosey but he was curious and she didn't seem to mind  actually she looked like she was in need of a good listener. "My brother... he ran away when he was 16 and my dad told us that he jumped into the East River and drowned... all lies. My other brother found out he ran away to this place just a month ago. My brother seems to have built a whole new life here and... I don't think we have space in his world anymore." She answered a tear running down her cheek but quickly whipped it away and took in a shaky breath. "Now tell me... why is your week so rough?" She asked trying to chuckle through the sadness and even Magnus had so many more questions he forgot them as soon as he had the opportunity to talk about Alec. "I met someone almost 2 months ago... he is an FBI Agent, sounds weird I know but it's true. I looked at him and that's all it took...I totally fell for him. Now my life is a mess and he... he caused all this. He pulls me closer and in the next second he pushs me 100 miles away." Magnus felt so comfortable talking to this woman even though he didn't even know her name but maybe he was glad to hear the opinion of someone who wasn't involved in his life. Someone who has a clear view on it without emotion blocking her view. "You look really handsome... I'm sure you can find someone who is way prettier and someone who really cares about you." The womans words made Magnus blush and he bit his lower lip. "How could I leave him when there is just the slightest chance I'm his only hope?" Magnus asked looking with his brown golden shimmering eyes at the clouds swirling by and the woman smiled. "Well if that's what it is... then don't let go. Fight for him and from whatever it is that he needs to be saved from... do it." Was it relief? Was it joy? It was probably both. Finally someone saw things the way he saw them. "Isabelle, we gotta go now. Dad is asking where we are." A blond not too tall, but bulky guy came their way and the girl got up on his arrival. "It was very nice meeting you... maybe we will see each other again." She said with a smile and Magnus nodded waving to her as she walked off with the blond guy. Little did Magnus know that their paths would cross more than once in the very short future...//tbc

oh welp...could that be our Isabelle or more like Alecs? 😱😱😱💜💜💜💜