Blissfully Sweet | Eddie Munson

Chapter 4 - Flowers

I crawled into bed and had my back facing the door. I laid there for a moment thinking about everything. I felt exhausted from crying, I reached the point where I couldn't cry anymore. I began to get fixated on the floor, a shiver ran up my spine as I heard Eddie open the door, shutting it behind him I heard his feet travel across the room.

I had been in the room for hours now. I couldn't think of what to tell Eddie. I needed space to think. An overwhelming numbness traveled through my body. Eddie walked besides the bed placing a cup of water on the side table, I kept my eyes focused on the floor until he held my medicine in front of me.
"Don't forget to take your medicine please." He mumbled looking down at me.

"I already took it." I lied.
"Lair." He snapped back at me. "It's been in the same spot since last night. Please." He begged.

I let out a deep sigh as I sat up. I didn't make eye contact with Eddie, snatching the pill bottle out of my hands I reached for the cup, once I took my medicine I walked out of the room, walking towards the bathroom I shut the door behind me. It had been hours since I moved so I knew I had to go.

A soft sigh fell from my lips as I sat there for a moment, when I stood up I got a good look at myself in the mirror. My eyes were puffy and my nose was red and swollen from crying. I looked at myself and felt nothing. Pressing my hand against myself I still felt nothing. My eyes began to water again as I opened the door and walked back into the bed room. I wanted to sleep on the couch, I didn't want to be around Eddie, I knew if I started crying again he would try to comfort me, I wasn't sure if I was ready for it yet.

The door creaked opened causing Eddie to look back at me, his eyes still filled with sorrow I looked at him for a moment before walking across the front of the bed. I grabbed my pillow and walked out of the room.
"Babe." I heard Eddie jump out of bed and follow me.
"Baby please-" He cried out reaching out for my hand. I looked up at him through my wet lashes.

"You're gonna sleep on the couch?" He asked holding back tears.
I slowly nodded my head before walking back to the couch.

"Jade-" he said softly tugging on my hand.
"Come to the bed please, if you're not ready to talk that's fine. I just-I want you in the bed please. You won't be able to sleep on the couch."

He was right, I don't even think I would be able to sleep tonight anyways. I didn't have the fight in me to argue so I walked back to the bed. Once I was in bed I crawled back to my same position. I heard Eddie shift back and forth debating on what to do.
"Can I cuddle you?" His whisper brushed against my back.
"No." I said bluntly. Eddie's feet brushed against mine but slowly moved away as he took in my response.

I looked over at the clock next to our bed.
12:34am
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2:15am

I had been awake for a while, I knew Eddie fell asleep bc I turned over for a second as my body began to ache. His eyes were shut and he laid close to me. I looked at him for a while and that's when I felt tears pool around my eyes.

I loved Eddie, I truly did. He was my best friend, my first love, my first everything. We had spent the last year creating memories together, but now... it hurt to look back on that. I wonder what would have happened if we went to a different grocery store. How long would he have kept this secret from me? Would I have ever found out at all if Chrissy wasn't our cashier?
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3:39am

I turned back over trying to fall asleep. My forehead pounded as I laid in bed thinking about everything. I didn't know what to do, I could tell Eddie felt sorry, but now I worry that I'll always have this in the back of my mind.

4:12am

My eyes began to burn as they felt heavy, I could tell I was falling asleep, but what pained me is I only felt this comfort because Eddie unknowingly draped his arm over me, my body had gotten used to his touch it was like a signal for my body that it was time to sleep. I closed my eyes slowly as my throat ached. I didn't want to cry myself to sleep so I held back tears as I began to slow my breathing down.
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