Hope

chapter 4

Hopes POV

"Mom, go away." I said sadly

"No Hope you have been like this for the whole weekend. School starts tomorrow, and you need food and sleep. Now, I need you to tell me what happened!" My mom exclaimed.

"No mom! It is none of your concern. Leave ME ALONE!" I screamed towards the end.

"Alright, fine. But I'm extremely disappointed in you." She shamely said.

"I don't care." I said looking out my bedroom window. She sighed, and left my room. I honestly didn't care. I'm fine.

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Tyler's POV

I was going to do it. I was going to go to her house, to explain myself. And I wouldn't give up, ever.

*knock knock* my palms were sweaty. I could barely breath. I love Hope, I needed to explain to her that, that was my past. I was-

"Tyler?" Hope's mother asked.

"Uh- hi Mrs. Macintosh." Is um Hope home..?" I asked so nervously.

"Shes in her room. Something is not right with her, but she won't tell me. Is it you and her? Do you know what's going on?" She questioned.

"Um yes, yes I do miss, I need to talk to her-please?" I said.

"Okay-uh ya come here." She motioned for me to come.

I followed her to Hope's room.

"Hope sweetie Tyler's here, and he needs to speak to you." Hope's mom explained. It was silent for at least a minute.

"No mom, I don't wish to speak to him." I heard Hope say, which broke my heart. Okay, I'm going to speak now, I have to.

"Uh, Hope, I really have to speak to you, please, let me explain everything. Just give me a chance." I said. It was surprising to see her open her door.

"What is it." She looked tired, horrible, still gorgeous, but horrible.

"Can I come in?" I asked. She motioned for me to come in. Her mom left downstairs.

"What do you want?" She asked.

"Let me explai-" I was saying

"No. I told you, I don't need an explanation. And I thought I told you we were done? I thought I told you to never come back here?" She crossed her arms.

"It was a mistake. I was immature,stupid, and horrible. I had an abusive uncle. Sadly, I took all of my anger out on my girlfriend. It made me feel better. I know that's psychopathic, but I had mental problems, obviously. Please Hope, forgive me." I was teary eyed.

"Tyler, you never even told me any of this when we were dating. I thought we both were supposed to be honest with each other. I told you everything about me, and my life. What the hell Tyler?" She said so sadly.

"I'm sorry, I truly am. But I'm telling you now, please accept me." I was crying at this point.

"No Tyler, I don't know what to believe, honestly. And how am I supposed to accept you? You beat the living crap out of some poor girl, because of your own problems. You could've talked to someone. Why did you do it." She said, a tear slipping down her cheek.

"I don't know Hope." I said.

"That isn't a good enough answer. I'm sorry Ty, but you have to leave, I can't even look at you right now." She said breaking eye contact with me.

"I truly am sorry Hope, for everything. For not telling you anything, for beating her, for hurting you emotionally.." I said trying to sound sincere. Who am I kidding? I hit my ex girlfriend. A lot. And with that I left.

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Hopes POV

I just sat there. Debating if I did the right thing. Should I forgive him, it wasn't even about me. The past is in the past, right? But then again, he never told me anything, and It would be going against all of my morals if I forgave someone like him. No I'm done with him.
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11:00 pm
"Mom, I'm going to bed. Night." I said
"Goodnight." She whispered.
"Whatever mom. Fine, don't interact with me!" I screamed.
" me?! Me, not interacting. This is you Hope. You're not talking with anyone. I've offered numerous times, to talk and interact with you! But you won't accept! So don't tell me I'm not interacting, because darling that's you. And I did say goodnight Hope, and I always will." She said. And I didn't know what to do. She was right with everything she just said. But I got angry instead.
"Ya, whatever mom. Goodnight." I said sarcastically, grunting.
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I woke up again to my alarm blaring. I didn't wanna go to school, and see him. Dang it, I'm late. Apparently I have been contemplating if I should go to school, for the past 20 minutes. Well I guess I should go. I dragged myself out of bed, and got ready.
"Mom! Can I have a ride! Im late!" I asked
"Yes Hope." She sighed.
"Thanks." I said.
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"Hope, you have been staring out the window, for 5 minutes." She said.
"So, I like the outdoors" I said without breaking eye contact with nature.
"Hope! Are you ready to tell me anything?! Seriously Hope tell me now!" She said.
"No! Give me some time! Oh my gosh!" I said, eye rolling.
"Don't you dare roll your eyes at me, ever!" She screamed.
I HATE YOU!" I screamed, louder.
And with that I heard a loud horn. And with that an impact, and it hurt at first, but then i felt numb. Like I was floating on water, on air. It didn't hurt anymore, all I saw was black. Was I experiencing death...again?