Palengke Series #6: Slice of Love With Miss Pandesosyal

Chapter 13

Warning! Striktong patnubay ng daliri este mata ang kailangan.

Medyo may part dito na medyo idi-detailed ko hahahaha.

Chapter 13: Christmas

Hopia’s Point of View

A broken trust will never be the same again. It makes you doubt everything.

After the call, I doubt everything including Xavier’s love, loyalty and faithfulness.

I even lost my sanity, thinking that he cheated on me. That he slept with other girl that is not me.

Ano ang nagawa kong mali? I asked myself, why? Why does he need to sleep with other girl? Am I not enough?

It made me question myself and my worth. It made me question everything.

Nakakapanghina sa sakit ang isiping may katabi siyang ibang babae habang ako ay naghihintay sa kaniya. And that girl he slept with is claiming that Xavier is her boyfriend!

So, kabit ako? Gano’n?

I didn’t know how I got home that night. All I remember is I was soaking wet under the rain and someone took me home. Wala ako sa maayos na pag-iisip ng gabing iyon.

All I can feel is anger, confusion, betrayal, and pain.

I got sick for almost a week. Galit na galit sa akin si tatay dahil umuwi ako ng hating-gabi na at basang-basa pa ng ulan.

He keep on asking me a question but I didn’t answer because my mind is too pre-ocupied with the call and Xavier’s betrayal on me.

Iyak rin ako nang iyak dahil sa sakit. Parang paulit-ulit na sinasaksak ang puso ko sa sakit. I keep on asking myself, what did I do wrong? Anong mali ko at pinagtaksilan ako ni Xaviet ng gano’n-gano’n lang?

I keep on telling myself that I should be rational. I should talk to Xavier first before I conclude anything. But there’s a huge part on me that won’t allow me.

How can I talk to him after he slept with other girl? How can I talk to my man if he cheated on me?!

For a week, hindi ako lumalabas ng kuwarto. Nag-text na lang ako kay Jessa na siya na muna ang bahala sa shop ko dahil may sakit ako. Nag-text na rin ako kay Vincent na siya muna ang bahala sa bakery ko. Sinabi ko rin sa kaniya na sabihin kay tatay na ayos lang ako.

I don’t want to talk to anyone, yet. I need to think about myself, my love for Xavier and our relationship.

Pagkatapos kong i-text lahat ng kailangang i-text ay pinower-off ko muna ang cellphone ko. Xavier is keep on calling and texting me but I didn't bother to answer one of them.

I need to calm down mind so I can think straight. Hindi dapat ako magpadalos-dalos sa desisyon ko. I need to talk to Xavier if my mind was in peace and I’m ready to face him. I’ve been so emotional in these last few days. If Xavier was really cheated on me and he admitted that thing to me, saka lang ako magde-desisyon.

I don’t want to end our relationship without hearing his explanation.

For now, magpapagaling at mag-iisip-isip muna ako. Masiyadong masakit ang nangyari ng gabi iyon at nagkaroon din ng lamat ang tiwala ko sa kaniya.

Let me think myself first before anything else. May sakit ako at kailangan ko munang unahin ang sarili ko.

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“M-Miloves. . .” A soft voice called my name as walked out of my room, a few days later. “H-Hopia. . .”

The side of my eyes heat and tears started to blurred my sight on how soft he called my name.

Hearing those words, it makes me weak.