Grace and Amari | (GxG) | Lesbian

Chapter 20: The future father-in-law?

For the rest of the day, we didn't talk that much. I kept sneaking glances at Amari and I couldn't bring myself to say anything. I didn't think she wanted to speak to me either. Whenever I accidentally caught her gazing at me, I quickly averted my gaze, not wanting to make her feel awkward. When night came, I found myself alone on the couch, staring at the ceiling and unable to fall asleep. A few times I felt the urge to go back to the bedroom, to hug her tightly and never let go, but I couldn't bring myself to do it. It wasn't fair to her. It would only confuse her further. I couldn't risk hurting her any more than I already did.

That was how the hours flew by. Every time I drifted off, I dreamed of her, of us together, dreaming of the future. Dreams filled with happiness and light. I wanted to share those dreams with her, but I simply couldn't bring myself to confess and say the things that I wanted to. I just couldn't admit it aloud. Even so, my heart was screaming at me to say it. To declare that I love her, to show her that I want to be with her for the rest of our lives. Yet, I was frozen.

When the morning came around I woke up feeling exhausted. For a brief moment, I wondered why I was sleeping on the couch instead of in my own bed before my memories hit me. As soon as they did, I looked around the room in a panic. Amari. Where is Amari? I should stop being so stupid and selfish! I have to confess to her! I jumped up from the couch, almost falling over due to the sudden movement. I raced towards the bedroom door in a hurry. My hands trembled as I grasped the handle and pulled it open forcefully.

Empty. She must've left early. I'm an idiot. What a fool. I let out a small sigh and ran my hand through my hair. I walked into the kitchen and started making coffee, trying to clear my head. Once my mug was full, I turned around and leaned against the counter, and stared at the door. I sighed deeply, trying to figure out what to do. I need to check my phone, what if she texted me something?

I grabbed the phone and checked the notifications. There was no message from Amari. I sighed again and pressed my thumbs against the screen. I quickly typed a short text before putting away the phone and going back to the living room. After a quick glance at the clock, I realized that it was 10 am. I should visit her shop, she's definitely going to be there, right? With renewed energy, I hurriedly changed into some fresh clothes and rushed out of the house, locking it behind me.

The sun shone brightly, blinding me as I ran through the streets. I didn't care, I needed to see her immediately. I felt like running all the way to where she worked, but I managed to calm myself down and slow down by taking long, deep breaths. I'm definitely an idiot. She literally lives kilometers away, in a totally different village. I mean, it is possible for me to run all the way there, but like... Am I in some kind of romantic drama movie? There's not going to be any dramatic background music and rain to get more emotions from viewers. Just me collapsing halfway because I'm as athletic as a snail.

Soon enough, I found a cab and was on my way to the "Flower Bee. Moments later, I was standing near the entrance, trying to hype myself up before going in. When did I become so irrational and emotional? Past me would never do things like this, I would just stay at home and rot in self-doubt and pity, I would never go outside unless forced. It seems that that version of me is completely and utterly gone, huh?
Before I had even taken one step inside, someone suddenly bumped into me and I stumbled backward. I quickly regained my balance and spun around to face whoever ran into me. And then I froze. Standing there, next to the entrance, holding onto his phone and staring at me, was Alain. Oh, for fuck's sake! Why would I run onto him first thing in the morning? I quickly straightened my posture and tried to appear cool.

- "Woah, you again. Watch where you going, asshole!"

I snapped irritatedly. He chuckled sarcastically and glanced sideways.