Leaving The Friendzone

Chapter 44

Elena Sergio.

The bell goes off which signified that the school day was over. Everyone has their bags and books set up to leave for home respectfully. I was still unbothered about what my eyes witnessed earlier. To an extent I was shocked, knowing fully well that Matthews hadn't gotten angry with anyone before in that kind of manner until Clara crossed her boundaries. A part of me felt bad for Clara. I was human after all, hatred wasn't going to get in my way of seeing that she just got embarrassed in front of the whole class, if not the whole school after falling into the same trap she set up for Matthews. If I was in her shoes, I won't be able to lift my head but she composed herself and left the scene even while she was noticed. My eyes roamed the classroom and the corridor just to get my eyes on Matthews but he zoomed off early to get to his home.

All I had in mind was to go after him and know if he was fine or not. It sounded too sudden but I had no choice. I decided to follow my instincts. My bike was picked up by me at the bike parking lot. I hoped on it and took a ride straight to his place.

While taking a ride, the recent scene I just witnessed began to flashback in my head like a lost memory. I just want to blame myself for what I witnessed earlier. Maybe I hurt him so much that he had to deal with it all to himself. Or maybe I caused him to transfer his aggression unto those who didn't deserve it apart from Clara though. I couldn't help myself but become sad while I rode my bike. Tears were filled at the tips of my eyes, trying to cross their boundaries to flow down my cheek but I held them back. It wasn't going to help me either way. I longed to talk to him and help him get over his pain. I needed to hear this voice badly when he decided to voice out his pain. My intentions were never to hurt him and that's all he needed to know.

I finally arrived at his place and took the first step to knock. I hope to see his face when the door opens to welcome me in. My hands were folded as I trembled in fear. Sounds of feet approaching the door were held and I kept myself together. The first impression was everything.

"Hey Elena, how are you?" Matthews' mom answered the door. I wasn't going to lie to myself. I felt my heart break a bit since I expected someone else but she shouldn't see the disappointment on my face.

"Hi, Mrs. Dunlop. I'm doing great. I'm here to see your son," I said in a bit of haste just for my reasons to be known without going around the bush.

"Oh yes. He's in the backyard. I'm sure he's expecting your arrival," She said with a smile on her face and stretched her hands while she gave me directions. Her words made me smile, especially when she said he was expecting me. Maybe I was overthinking when I journeyed to this place. I just hated seeing him weak and miserable.

My steps were taken slowly towards the backyard. The places I stepped my feet upon looked tattered and dirty. It looked like no one had been here in weeks. I know I have watched movies like this, where they had that part of the house that seemed unusual, I think it was happening in my reality.

My eyes finally met him. He sat on the ground with his legs and hands folded together, just staring at what I couldn't fathom in my eyes. He noticed my presence and his eyes met mine. I felt that sensation and had that belief that all will be alright since I was here. He looked really sad when I looked into his eyes. He must have been here to get all in his space and have a rethink.

Upon sighting me, he ran over to me and before I realize what was happening, his hands were wrapped tightly around me. To be honest with me, I have missed this. His warm hugs. But this one was a little bit too uncomfortable and I was gasping for breath. I tap lightly on his shoulder trying to disengage myself from him. We have missed each other from what just occurred. After the hug, an awful silence followed, it hung between us. It was clear that we both had something we wanted to say to the other but none of us wanted to crack first.