Embracing the Heartless Lies (Isla Lavinia Series 2)

Kabanata 26

Kabanata 26

Sulyap

From Unknown Number :

I know you're doing this because you want to get rid of me. I'm sorry. I'm just trying to care for you because it's bad for your health, but if you don't want, I'll stop. But, please, don't leave me like this again.

I blinked twice with his message. Natulala ako roon nang ilang minuto habang dinaramdam ang matulin na kalabog ng puso ko. Seems like it was destined and supposed to be like that. Lumunok ako at pinikit nang mariin ang aking mata.

I choosed to not reply and turn off my phone. Sumandal ako sa headrest ng seat. Pwersa kong pinilit na 'wag liparin ang mga prinsipyo na binuo ko para sa sarili ko. Alam kong kailanman na hindi mawawala ang takot na nakakurba na sa puso ko.

Even for the fleeting moment, I wanted to trust again, the traumas and breakdown I had for the past years will always let me remember how scared to do those things again. Na laging kong naalala ang mga nangyari sa akin noon at ang mga takot na nabuo sa akin dahil sa mga nangyari.

Nakarating akong Manila nang hindi nag-r-reply sa message niya. I don't think it's needed to reply. Inisip ko na lamang na si Easton ang gusto kong ibaon sa limot at ayaw ko nang muling mapalapit sa kaniya.

However, even how many times I remind myself about those, I always think of him even though the plane already landed. Good thing, the activity we had was afternoon so I had the time to fix myself.

I still felt very heavy. Paminsan-minsan ay ramdam ko ang sakit ng ulo ko pero sinubukan ko pa ring umattend sa nasabing activity. It was held in the building near our company. Hindi ko rin alam kung bakit dito ginanap.

It started with the meeting. Ang building na ginanapan ay pag-aari pa rin ng de Vera. The building was newly renovated and the meeting room had the elegant transparent walls. Dahil nasa second floor lamang kami'y kita ko ang iilang tao sa labas.

I couldn't concentrate with the meeting and the activity. Depende na rin sa mga may gusto ang sasali. But because I had the heavy feeling, I choose to watch. Laging pang nililipad ang isip ko sa message ni Easton.

Lagi akong napasusulyap sa telepono ko at tinitingnan ang message. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ko nga ba talaga ginagawa iyon. I shouldn't have expect anything! Forgetting him will always be the way to heal!

Lagi iyon ang pinaalala ko sa sarili ko hanggang ngayon. I tried to avoid him with all the cost. Because I know that's the best solution at all.

Nanunood ako ng mga activities pero iyon ang pabalik-balik sa isip ko. I tried to push it away out my mind because it made me lack energy to do such things. Nakaupo pa rin ako sa upuan at hindi sumasali sa ginagawa ng ibang co-workers ko.

May ilan din namang hindi sumali katulad ko. I was sitting their with my heavy body and clouded minds. I was in the middle of my things, when my phone beeped again for another message.

Kahit anong pigil ko yata sa sarili ko ay mabilis ko pa rin iyong tiningnan. Nakita kong si Easton na may bagong message. I shut my eyes hardly when I tried to stop myself but I can't.

Binuksan ko iyon at binasa.

From Unknown Number :

How are you? Do you still have fever? If you still have, take a rest. Please tell me you're okay.

Muli akong napapikit nang mariin. Ang hirap nang parteng ang tagal kong pinaghirapan na subukang kalimutan siya at magpatuloy. But with his just one move, it all faded away.

My phone beeped again because of his message.

From Unknown Number :

I'm outside the building where you are. I want to know of you're already fine.