Dear Heart,
Why him?
It's such a surreal feeling, sometimes bitter-sweet and sometimes, amazing. It's fantastic and also something that don't want to stop feeling. With so much love, it's impossible, impossible that he could love someone like me. And here's why I say that: How could he love someone like me when I don't love myself?
And only he could answer that question, but every time he does, I chose not to believe him. Only because he left more than once, leaving me heartbroken and unaware of why he did it. So, from there, I chose to not be open about the feelings I've felt, I chose not to open up much again because if they left because of that, how could I be so stupid and do it again?
Every time I'm happy, the feelings that erupts in my chest- it's a wonderful feeling. Yet I can't help but think deep down inside, that one day, he'll leave again; and I'll be hurt, but never blame him for that.
So here now I wonder, the dear heart of mine: Is it the impossible you go towards, or do you just want to be hurt like always? Do you choose to ignore the signs or just go along with the pain and misery?
I'm hurting, so badly- so please, go easy on me. I wasn't born to be strong, because there isn't a time where I've over thought each and every word I say, overthink about the smallest things and pity myself of the things I do and how I affect people.
Dear heart, tell me- explain to me the reasons why, I need to know. Please.
Your soul, me.
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Eunoia • Book Two
Poetry𝐏𝐎𝐄𝐓𝐈𝐂 𝐏𝐈𝐄𝐂𝐄𝐒 𝐖𝐑𝐈𝐓𝐓𝐄𝐍 𝐁𝐘 𝐌𝐎𝐈. • • • • • ❝ 𝑹𝒆𝒎𝒆𝒎𝒃𝒆𝒓, 𝑰 𝒉𝒐𝒑𝒆 ❞ • • • • • Book Two of Eunoia (Beautiful Thinking). A book with words dipped in the emotions of a young soul. • • • • • ❝ 𝑭𝒓𝒐𝒎 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒓𝒕 𝒐...
