Eunoia • Book Two

Chaos And Threat, That I Am

Wondering where it all goes wrong,
To wondering if there's something wrong to me.
I knew there was, from the start.

So, what made me think not?
You tried hiding that fact, covering with lies.
But that's stupid, I must admit.

They all left, leaving me with myself.
I couldn't escape, it was a sad story.
But one, no one understood fully.

Because no one can, not the way I do.
But if I can't understand it myself,
What does it make you to understand it all?

I tried to work with myself, each and every day.
But as the progress gets better, results are never not.
I'm tired of trying and tired of not.

Whatever it maybe, I am chaos to it all.
Just go away, hurt me already.
Stop trying to mend my pieces back together.

When all you'd do next is break another piece.
But this time, I sense that it'll be harder.
Harder to heal, harder to cope with it all.

Since I've grown too close to you than I've never did before.
I know one day, you'll get bored of me.
Of the person I am, no matter how much you 'love' me.

And I've made my mind up from the start,
Because you haven't proved me wrong.
Always right, you were, a medal you truly deserve.

Hurt me, leave me there.
I deserve none of this affection or love.
I am nothing but chaos and threat, so goodbye.