Just 2 months ago, Demi split from the guy she thought was her forever.
Demi first met Odell Beckham Jr after her concert in Las Vegas, it was just a one night stand between them but it turned into an agreement.
I was so deep in my eating disorder that I didn't see anyway out without help but I was shut down the moment I asked for it. Apparently I'm not sick enough. It seemed they were more worried about their reputation than my health. I was still expected to be this successful pop star whilst battling my demons that were only getting worse.
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My new single 'Sorry Not Sorry' was released July 11th and I spent the next week flying around the US for different house parties to help promote it. I kept this fake smile plastered across my face and hoped nobody noticed that I was completely falling apart on the inside. I don't know who I am anymore. I'm fucking miserable. I'm starting to feel like I'm living my life for other people and not myself.
August was a busy month with promo. I did performances and interview after interview, talking about how happy I am and how amazing my life is at the moment. Nobody really knows how fucking unhappy I really am in my life.
I celebrated my 25th birthday at an entertainment facility that offered food, arcade games and bowling. In a moment of complete weakness, I invited Odell and I'd forgot about that until he turned up and then I was a complete mess.
"You forgot you invited him?"
"Yeah, why you think I'm reacting like this?" I was staring at Matthew with wide eyes. I was seriously starting to panic. My heart was racing and I was starting to shake.
"You want me to ask him to leave?" I shook my head, trying to force back the tears that were burning the back of my eyes. "D, you gotta breathe" Matthew lightly rubbed my arm as I relaxed back against the wall. "You sure you're okay with him here? I don't mind kicking him out."
"It's fine. I guess I didn't expect him to show up" I bit my lip as I glanced down at my hands and released a breath. I took a few moments and then managed to compose myself. "Okay, I'm good" Matthew flashed me a light smile as I glanced up at him. I pushed myself away from the wall and stepped back out into the main area which was busy with people. I was hoping it was busy enough that I'd be able to avoid Odell for a bit but of course shit never works in my favour. As soon as I turned the corner, my eyes landed on Odell who was stood talking to Natalie and Jill. I froze on the spot so Matthew ended up crashing into my back.
"Shit D" I stumbled slightly but managed to catch myself before I fell flat on my face. That obviously caught Odell's attention and with nowhere to run, I watched him walk over to me. A light smile graced his lips.
"Hi birthday girl, was looking for you" my entire body felt like jello when his arm wrapped around me.
"Hi, I-I didn't think you-you'd come" I internally cursed myself for stumbling over my words.
"You think so little of me, huh?" I took a few steps away from him when he removed his arm from around me. I could feel multiple sets of eyes staring at us which made my cheeks burn. It then hit that a lot of people don't even know that we're friends, well loosely friends. I don't really know why I invited him. Maybe it was to torture myself, take that pain away from the constant urge I have to binge. It gives me something else to feel other than depression.
Matthew thankfully started up a conversation so Odell and I were no longer silently staring at each other. The pair were left chatting whilst I was dragged off to play some arcade games. I kept checking on Odell and would find myself blushing whenever our eyes met.
"Hey Hermosa" I jumped as a hand slid along my back and completely abandoned the game I was about to lose.
"Wil. Hi" he leant to softly kiss my cheek. I caught Odell's gaze when Wilmer pulled away. His eyes seemed to roam along Wilmer and then burnt back into mine. "Thank you for coming" he flashed me a wide smile that used to make my knees weak. I honestly thought I was head over heels in love with Wilmer but those feelings are nothing compared to what I feel for Odell now. My feelings for Odell are on a totally different scale and it sucks that Odell doesn't feel the same way.
I played on a few arcade games with a couple friends until everyone decided to sing 'happy birthday' to me. It wasn't until the attention on me died down that Odell managed to pull me away from everyone and into a disabled restroom.
"Odell, what the fuck?"
"What? I ain't done shit."
"Why are we in here?" I leant against the counter and crossed my arms over my chest as Odell stood by the door.
"We ain't had much time to talk. You've been avoiding me" I bit down on my lip. "And I wanted to give you your present" my eyebrows scrunched together as he walked towards me, his hand shoved in the pocket of his pants.
"You've got me a present?" his lips twitched into a smirk and for a very brief moment I was nervous. It wasn't until he pulled a Cartier box from his pocket that I began to relax. I glanced up to meet his gaze as he handed it to me.
"It ain't much, just a little something" I focused back down on the box and slowly lifted the lid. My jaw slowly dropped at the necklace nestled inside. It was a white gold necklace with a small diamond. It looks so dainty and delicate.
"Odell, it's gorgeous."
"Yeah?" I bit my lip and nodded as I glanced back up at him, my lips twitching into a smile.
"Thank you" I leant up to press a soft kiss to his cheek as his hand settled on my hip. I then met his gaze and was completely hypnotised. I couldn't force myself to look away as butterflies exploded in my stomach. "I-I should probably head back out before..." Odell's fingers delicately caressed my neck as he leant into me. My heart was pounding against my chest as his lips brushed against mine.
