Jake's Younger Sister

• fixing the cracks •

It was finally Wednesday morning and I was meeting Jake for lunch today. It'll be awkward and most definitely hard but I'm going to make things right.

I rolled out of Katrina's spare bed, that had practically every single piece of clothing I owned on it. I shuffled out of the room to the bathroom and began getting ready, I did my skincare, brushed my teeth and styled my hair.

I shuffled back into the spare room, I pulled on blue adidas fleece sweatpants, a white crop top and I tied on my navy converse. As I walked out of the room, I grabbed a random hoodie
that was way to big for me. I looked down and realised it was Colby's. Fucking fantastic.

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As I walked out of the room I greeted Kat, I asked for her car keys and left the apartment once I found them. I walked down to Kat's parking space and hopped into her car.

I connected my phone to the aux and I put on some music, 'Listen before I go' by Billie Eilish began to play as I drove off. As I drove I started to worry, what if he didn't want to see me?, what if i was just a big burden to him now?

I calmed myself down and kept driving. However those thoughts were always in the back of my mind.

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Once I got there I saw Jake sitting outside on his phone, I got out of the car. My palms began to sweat and my heartbeat picked up. He saw me and started to walk over with no emotion playing on his face. Not even a tiny corner smirk.

"Hey." Jake coughed awkwardly, trying to avoid eye contact "Hey Jake." I smiled weakly, I leaned in for a hug but Jake moved to the side. I took a deep defeated breath and walked over to our table.

As we sat down at out table, a waitress came out with menus and waited for us to take our order patiently. I smiled as Jake ordered a breakfast burger; classic jake. Although it was now lunch of course he still went for a breakfast burger. Once it was my turn to order, I ordered a caesar salad with hot chips.

I smiled weakly at Jake before I decided to drop the bomb.

"Jake." I started quietly however, Jake looked up from his phone. "I'm so sorry." I muttered, my vision became blurry and I felt the tears come to my eyes. Jake looked up at me in pain, "Amora-" He tried to continue but I kept talking.

"These past few weeks without you; my bestfriend has been hell." I uttered, "What I did was so fucked up and I was so naïve." I stated. Jake sighed heavily as he crossed his arms, "You're right Amora, what you did was really fucked up. I still can't believe you would do this. What was going through your head!" He scoffed.

"I can't help who i fall inlove with, Jake!" I replied, tears spurting out of my eyes. Jake scoffed in disbelief, "Christ Amora, in love?" Jake sighed, rubbing his temples.

It was the truth, i loved Colby and I couldn't deny it any longer.

Our waiter came back with our food and read the room instantly, she quickly placed down the food and flashed a polite smile then left. Jake sighed, "Amora, are you sure you..love him?" Jake mumbled.

"I've never been so sure in my life." I said wiling away at the tears streaming down my face, Jake exhaled deeply.

"Jake, I'm sorry and I feel terrible about all of this but I truly do love him." I frowned looking at his face, longing for a reaction. He took my hand and squeezed. "Amora, if you truly love him and as long as he treats you well" Jake continued "It's okay with me."

I knew this was hard for him and I'm so grateful that I didn't loose him because of this chaos. I smiled eagerly as I got up and hugged Jake tightly. He hugged back even tighter.

"Thank you." I whispered. I was back on the right track, now I have to deal with Colby. However I think everything is going to be okay..for final.