Heartsick Desires

Spoiled

I cuddle under the blanket on the couch while watching Coraline for the hundredth time. It's my favorite movie, I feel the need to gatekeep the movie even though millions of people have seen it.

I shiver at the coldness in my body, which I find odd because my body was burning up not even an hour ago.

After Theo moved me to his bed to get dressed he changed my bandages for the first time. and let me tell you, it was not fun. It hurt, I took a huge pain pill. Like why am I still in pain after I took such a high dosage?

I really didn't enjoy crying in front of Theo. I barely know the dude, no offense, but like I don't want to be that one girl that just sobs her heart out to her man. And anyways I gotta show off cause have you seen his muscles?

I hear ruffling from the front door and a jingle followed by a click. I faintly make out Syn and Silas's bickering.

"Heyyy, we're home!" I turn my head around and see Syn walking into the kitchen.

Suddenly I get a light tap on my shoulder and I jerk my head around in surprise. "Hi, angel. I hope you didn't miss me too much." Silas winks.

I shake my head at his mannerisms, he's so charming but so egotistical.

"I might've gone a little overboard with the list, but I love shopping, okay? Definitely for other people. Now let's get up and take a look at the things I picked out" He adds with a boyish grin.

I stay silent, I just feel awkward and quiet, not really wanting to say anything to make them angry.

I am alright with light physical contact, so I take his hand and he walks me over to the island counter.

There I see bags upon bags, some from Hot Topic, my favorite. I see grocery bags, things from Micheals, and some from other stores that have my eyes brightening in excitement.

But soon enough my shoulders slump when I come to the realization that I can't accept any of this.

Number one, they'd have something to use against me. And number two, I didn't buy any of this, meaning, I don't deserve any of the items in the bags.

"What's wrong? Don't like Barnes And Nobels?" Syn asks.

"No, I do it's just... it's j-just" I drag out, thinking of a less depressing reason.

Silas hums in understanding even though I didn't say the reason. "I see, you don't like when people spend money on you I'm guessing. It's cute, really, but it's no big deal." He shrugs.

I'm about to protest, but before I even let a word out I feel a finger pressing on my lips.

My cheeks lighting aflame, "Silas went on a frenzy because he wanted to, Darling. Not because he had to." Syn said sternly, leaving no room for argument.

I nodded before my brain could even register the statement, only listening to the obvious dominance in his voice.

I looked up at him, and he dragged his thumb down on my bottom lip, releasing it. I didn't even notice I was biting my lip, god that's embarrassing.

"Good girl, now go check out the things we got you while we talk in the other room." He praised, making me feel warm and fuzzy.

I smiled and padded over to the huge pile of bags.

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Jeez, they've spoiled me rotten.

Colored pencils, paints, and canvases decorate the counter, and that's not even half of it.

Clothes and shoes of many styles clutter the kitchen.

Many different foods, some of which are vegan. Add contrast to the white marble.

I wipe my tear-stained cheeks with my sleeve and grin, I'm so happy.

I need to show gratitude, is that was people do to show that they're thankful? I'm pretty sure.

I wander over to the wooden door and knock gently, I don't hear a response for a bit thinking they didn't hear me.

I reach my fist up to knock, but before I even get the chance the door swung open revealing a tall black-haired boy.

I flinch at the sudden movement, "Oh my Angel, I'm sorry. It's just a habit my apologies" he wraps an arm around my shoulder and brings me into the room.

I don't like this. The spotlight is all on me, three pairs of eyes, three possibilities that someone's judging me.

"I-I um.." I clear my throat before speaking again "Thank you for the gifts, I really appreciate you trying to make me feel more at home..." I say timidly.

God this is so awkward.

Silas breaks into applause, "She speaks!" He announces to no one in particular.

I swear I blushed like sixty-four shades of red just now.

"You're welcome, you need help with bringing it up to your room?" Theo asks calmly, I shake my head no at his offer.

Syn just nods, alright then looks like my job is done here. I leave with that and do a small awkward salute before shutting the door behind me.

Y'all I'm finna be so honest, I didn't know what to write at the end so it just had an awkward ending... yeah, anyways HOPE YOU ENJOYED!!! (unedited)