Just Us //Byler

Chapter 12

  TW: Mention of self-harm,                                 Will

Homophobic slurs, small ED                       

It has been 4 days since i ran away, since i messed everything up, since everything is ruined, since Mike will never talk to me again without mocking me for liking him. Maybe that's what hurts the most, That nothing will be the same again, Nothing.

I don't know what to do, these past days Ive just been so, lost? Something is definitely wrong with me. And i don't even have to pretend that i don't know what it is, because i know, i do know. I am a freak, A fag. And I'm in love with my best friend, And when i don't know how to handle my anger or sadness i hurt myself. I know i shouldn't do it, I know it's bad. But i don't know what to do.

It's 10 in the morning i know i should get up and do something with my life.

But what's the point with life if Mike isn't in it? If he want's to talk to me, He will. And if he don't.. I guess that's it. That's the end.

Maybe the end is already here? I haven't heard from him, I haven't even seen him these past days. Maybe this is the end? I sat up, looking out from my window when i noticed something laying on my drawing desk in front of it.

I quickly get up and look at it, " To Will <3 " Huh? Who's this from? It's wrapped in a dark floral wrapping paper with some tiny dark hearts. Who is this from?

It can't be anyone from school because everyone hates me there and it can't be from mom or Jonathan because they would just have given it to me, and besides if it we're from them why would they wrap it in?

I gently unwrapping it, making sure to not damage the paper or the thing that's inside of it. Ive finally got all the paper of and I'm standing in completely.. shock, confusion?

It's my favorite candy, The one you can only get at the mall. It's flavored with salted caramel and chocolate, then I notice a note on it.

" I hope you like it, I know it's you're favorite : ) "

What? But i haven't even told anyone that it is my favorite besides from Mom, Jonathan and..Mike..?

But why would he- How.. I thought... He always gave me this when we we're younger after we have had an argument and he wanted to apologize but didn't know how to do it. But why now? I thought he hated me..

Maybe he actually do like me? No, That's stupid. I opened the bar and took a bite, wow it was so long ago i ate this but It's really good! I went for an another bite but stopped myself in the middle of the processes. I turn the package and look at the ingredients.

-sodium, 502 mg

- cocoa, 70%

- milk, 8 g

- sugar, 48 g

- calories, 555

I look back at the mirror, It's not like I am fat but I'm not that skinny either... Maybe i should just eat a bit at a time. I sit down at my desk and put the chocolate bar aside, i grab my art book and my favorite crayons and pencils.

I immediately knew what to draw, Mike. When i don't have anything to draw i always draws Mike, The reason Ive never showed him my sketchbook is because its full of drawing of him.

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I look up, The clock is now 4 Pm, I think Ive actually give up on hope this time. Some part of my hoped that Mike would actually come and talk to me, But he hasn't and I'm pretty sure he won't. Mom and Jonathan are away so I'm home alone, I don't really like to be home alone. What if the demogorgon comes back? I know it's an stupid thought, I know i should grow up and move on. But it's hard you know? It took everything from me, My childhood, my friends, the party, the feeling of safety and I can't even bike alone at 7pm now, It's stupid.

I sit on my bed still hiding in my thoughts, as something snap me back to reality.

-Knock, knock-

I stand up walking tot he hall, should i open the door? What if it's an serial killer or maybe Troy who has found my address. At this point is raining heavily outside, i don't think Troy would come home to me when it's raining this bad.

My face is still puffy and my eyes are red from crying the last 2 hours. Not for any special reasons this time. Just because my whole life is a piece of shit.

I'm now standing right in front of the door, voices running thru my head. Should i open it? Should i just pretend I'm not home? No i should definitely open it, But what if it's an killer?

Without thinking i open the door. I just stand there, Looking like a completely idiot.

" M-Mike..? " What is he doing here? He's all wet and his black curly hair is hanging in front of his eyes, his rosy cheeks are shading with a bit of light pink, his brown eyes into mine. Oh, what i would do to kiss him right now and here.

"Oh..Uhm, Hi will .."  He looks really nervous, "What..are you doing here? It's so could outside an- "

" Will I'm so so sorry! I didn't mean to look at you like that or whatever! I was just so i shock, never in my life would i think you would like me ba-  like me that way .. I'm just so so sorry how Ive been acting in school and making you believe I hated you. Because i don't, and i will never do..  I just want everything to be the same again, you know?.." He cuts me of, i just look at him.

"Nothing will ever be the same again Mike.. Ive fucked everything up and You know i like you. We can't just go around and act like i don't. " I know i should accept is apology, Ive missed him so much. But it won't work.

"T-that's the thing Will... " He looks down at his feet, What does he mean? " I-I.. You know.. I really.." I look at him in disbelief, What does he want to say?

" I'm sorry.. The thing is that i.. i do.. " He looks up at me again, is he crying?

Suddenly he puts his cold hands on my cheeks and i feel myself blushing like crazy. He pulls me closer just inches from our lips connecting. Our eyes locked deep into each other, Then it happens. He fills the inches between our lips with his lip connecting to mine. My hands on his waist and his on my cheeks. After about 7 seconds he pulls away.

" I do like you Will, I really do " Ive waited for this moment for 3 years, 3 fucking years and it has finally happen. " You d-do..? "

"Of course stupid" He says, his cold hands still on my warm blushing face. But I'm not the only one blushing, Mike is blushing like crazy. Ive never seen him like this before and it makes me giggle.

" Whats so funny? " He says while removing his hands from my cheeks " I-its just Ive never seen you like this before, You're blushing like crazy " I say between my laughs.

"Oh shut up Byers " he chuckles looking down at his feet in embarrassment  " Let's go inside, You're really cold Mike " I say after i put my arm around his shoulders leading him into the house.