Devil's backbone (Eddie munson au)

Part 7

I drove my self to Monday morning. Eddie was late to class And all eddie gave me was an awkward smile before bolting out the door once the bell rang. I was crushed I had read the situation all wrong. Not only did I lose some one I liked, I had lost a friend. I decided I would go about my time, trying not to wallow and definitely not chasing him. After a few days I started to get mad. At myself for thinking about the last couple of weeks over and over. At him for just disappearing act.

So Friday when I saw him approaching my locker I slammed it shut and made my way to my car. When backing up I catch a glimpse of him throwing his book bag into his van with some force. My stomach twinged a bit with guilt.

After the basketball game Anna called me to try and tempt me to come out with her but I wasn't in the mood. Especially since mark would be around.
"You and Eddie still not talking?" I answered her with a "mmmhuh"

"Maybe he is just a big flirt. Or gay."
"Definitely not gay." I say rolling my eye.
"A tease?"
"Possibly."

"I just feel stupid. I read the situation wrong. I mean in the moment it didn't feel wrong. But his reaction, this week. Ugh!" I press my hand to my eyes.

"I'm sorry Sarah. It really sucks. And I hate to do this to you but I have to go. My ride is here."
We say goodbye and hang up. Going to my stereo, I start to pick threw my tapes. Picking up a mix tape Eddie had made me of his favorite songs I groan, tossing the tape back down it only reminded me of my own stupidity. Putting In my copy of queen's under pressure and crawling back in my bed and pulling my homework onto my lap.

After twenty minutes, getting frustrated I throw my book to the end of the bed and decide I need to take a minute and get something to drink.

Coming back with my glass of water I hear a tap
On my window and when I look over and see a face. I scream and Flailing my arms water going everywhere. When my heart rate goes back to normal I go to my window and throw it open.

"Did I scare you?" He says still laughing.
"Yes. What do you want Eddie."
"Your mad." I roll my eye.
"No duh."
"Listen can we just talk." I take a minute to think about it before sighing and stepping out onto the roof. Crossing my arms I wait for him to start talking.

"I'm sorry. I was shocked. And I'm sorry that I haven't talked to you till now. I was caught up in my own thoughts. You can yell or scream at me. Just talk to me. Please. I miss you. I'll answer any and all questions. Just talk to me." He said hands out stretched like he was trying not to scare off some horse with sudden movement. A long moment stretched on.

"What happened? If I miss read something let me know. But I've seen your eyes, so tender  and I assumed...., well I thought I would take my chance and then.... It's been a week, a week since it happened... you've barely looked at me." I tried to find the right words but ended up just stumbling over the thoughts I had been thinking for the last week. He looked down at his feet, looking like he felt guilty.

"So I just want to know What's this game we are playing? Does this mean anything to you?" I motion to the air between us.

"Because for me,Your smile, the sound of your voice, the way you see through me....You gave me no choice, you mean a lot to me. So I just want to know, are you going to laugh at me If I tell you I care for you? Do you feel the same way too? please tell me, 'cause If you don't I'll walk away and save my self the embarrassment." My eyes are burning with unshed tears but I refuse to let them fall in front of him, looking anywhere but his eyes. He steps forward places his hand on either Side of my head, forcing me to look into his eyes, they are shining like he is also holding back tears.

"You...this... it mean so much to me. I don't know how I fell so easily. A little small talk, a smile and baby I am wrapped around your finger. I still don't know how you did it to me." He stops for a minute his nerves crossing his face again.

"When you kissed me ton of questions and feelings started bouncing around in my head. I feel a kind of fear....I've had a few other girls but They didn't last very long and they've been pretty scarce,But this is different, this is new. It's you and Im begging you don't toy with me. if your not I want all of it. Every moment, every emotion, every kiss, everything."

He search's my eyes, I feel a tear finally slip down. His eye goes to it and his brows furrow. Swiping his thumb across my cheek wiping away the tear. Leaning forward halfway before searches my eyes again before leaning the rest of the way to place a gentle kiss on my lips.

"I would never toy with you. I mean every word. I'm head over heels for you." I say pulling away.
He smiles and pulls me into another kiss, deeper this time.

"Want to come in for a bit?" I ask him still chilly in the early April night air. Climbing back threw the window i grab my books and close them up setting them on the bedside table.

"Doing school work on a Friday night?" He teases.
"Well I didn't have any plans." I say as he pulls me down beside him on the bed.

"Sorry. I've been a jerk this week. I've had a lot on my mind. Not just us." He says laying back against the head board.

"What's wrong."
"It's nothing." He says as I lay down against his chest.
"Eddie." I say and he looks down at me.
"You can tell me." He sighs before he starts to talk.

"I'm not graduating again this year. So I'm stuck her another year." Sitting up I turn to him.
"Maybe we can start studying together. Get your grades up." I say and the side of his mouth twitches.

"Ya In a month. Not going to happen. So come next fall. You'll be...where ever and I'll be stuck here." I lay back down and a long silence stretches on and on.
"We will deal with that when it comes." I try to sound positive but I am worried.

Can't we have one moment of happiness.

"Do you know where your going?" He asks.

"I'm going to bethel, they have a two year nursing program. I'll only be two hours away." He rubbed my shoulders and kissed the top of my head.

"Yea." He sighed.