Sugar and Spice (Completed)

Chapter 17

Emberessmant is normal   -   Leila

The next few days have gone by very smoothly. I and Zane have been bonding, going on late-night beach walks, picnics, and movies. It was all so refreshing, seeing a different side of Zane was nice. I loved it.

Key: past. Was. Zane is back to ignoring me. I bet it's embarrassment though. She said it was her first time. Of course, she's going to be embarrassed. I'm currently reading my book, I'm taking a break from studying. I'm reading a book called Hold Still. It's really good in my eyes. There's this girl her name is Caitlin and her best friend, Ingrid, killed herself the book shows how she goes through day-to-day life with depression.

Catlin then finds a girl, Dylan, who has a girlfriend and they bond, and the book is queer-friendly, which is very important for me in a book. It's a really good book, and there are these diary entries that Catlin reads from Ingrid's diary.

I like it. My mother had bad depression. She was killed when I was young, but my father let me read her diaries, and I felt connected to her in a way. So in a way, I know what she feels. But I never lost my best friend.

Anyway, I put my book down as a knock is heard on my door. "Come in," I say loud enough for whoever is on the other side to hear. The door opens to reveal Zane. She sighs and walks in. I wait for her to talk, and it looks like she sorted out in her mind how to start.

"I know I've been a dick." She starts. Stating the obvious. I nod. "And I don't have a good excuse, other than being embarrassed." I want to say something but I don't. "I was embarrassed by how my body reacted to you. A-and I dealt with it the only way I know, the only way I learned. I pushed you away. And it was uncalled for. It was selfish and rude. And I'm sorry." She says. I nod once again, not saying a thing. Letting her let it all out. "I don't expect you to forgive me immediately. I ignored you after we had sex after you took my virginity. And I ignored you because of embarrassment." I nod and she finally looks up at me. I get out of bed and walk over to her.

I wrap my arms around her body and pull her closer to me. "It's ok. no, you haven't been a dick, and I don't blame you. This was your first time. You're probably sure you were horrible. Which you were not. It was amazing. And I hope you feel the same. And I would never be mad because of that. It's normal. I was there too. I was exactly where you are currently. I was so embarrassed after I had my first time, I ignored her for about a month. So I understand." I say in one breath. She is looking me in the eyes and I pull her face closer to me, I kiss her on her soft lips, loving every second of our skin touching.

"So you're not mad?" She asks against my lips.

"No I'm not mad," I say giggling. I kiss her again and feel myself get lost in the kiss. 

"I love you, Leila. I love you so much..." She mumbles breathlessly.

"I love you too, Zane," I mumble back.

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This book is going to come to an end soon...
-Alex.