How did it all begin?
Where does everything go for you and him?
Love or Hatred?
Light or Stay in the dark?
Freedom or Death?
"Magkano po lahat?" I asked
I looked into the old woman's eyes and smiled widely as she looked me over from head to toe.
"Four hundred fifty, Ganda"
I paid and she handed me the paper bag while still staring at my face.
"Salamat po" I said in a low tone and left the convenience store.
I closed my eyes and took a deep breath.
Hanggang kailan kaya ako masasanay sa mga tao sa paligid?
People around me are always staring at me everywhere I go, Hindi ba nila kaya hindi tumngin sa tao ng gantong katagal? Sinusundan pa 'ko ng tingin. Pakiramdam ko tuloy may masamang balak or what.
"Yes, Azalea?" Tumawag bigla ang only friend ko at hindi ko parin siya miss kahit nasa England siya.
Why? Dahil lagi niya ako kinakausap. Every day, every hour that passes, always calls ang bruhalaklakin na 'to.
Yes, Bruhalaklakin.
Hindi ko rin alam kahit nasa malayo talaga siya, hindi ko siya miss. Basta hindi ko feel sa ngayon.
"I sent a box to your house, I swear you will love it when you open it na!" I quickly removed the earpods from my ear because her voice was so loud!
I forgot to alert myself that she's always loud and very energetic.
"Which house? You know I have four houses"
"Ops, Sorry! Sa paris, I sent it there" I rolled my eyes and looked around when I noticed a few men looking at me.
"Bakit doon? Alam mo naman nandito ako sa pinas"
"Ops! Akala ko kasi you will go to paris ulit to find a handsome and hot boyfie!"
"When did i say that? Ikaw ata writer saating dalawa, You are good at making stories" She laughed loudly as if it was the end of the world.
May topak ata 'to.
"You b*tch, As long as you get there, open it right away, Okay?"
"Alright" I said listlessly
"Okay, Okay! Take care, My Vician, My Vikie, My Viland, My Vicianca!" I laughed and nodded.
Kailan kaya 'to mauubusan ng energy?
"Have a great day! Azalea, Love you"
"Love, Love you!"
She hung up the call and like i said she will call again later.
I'm going home now. Tonight I just plan to eat, write or read a book and sleep.
I'm just walking. My dog? a siberian husky is with me so I'm safe in our area because I'm not familiar with people's behavior here.
Wala akong tiwala..
"Pre, chance mo na 'to" I quickly turned to my left side and there were two men wearing black t-shirts but one was tucked into his pants. They are both tall and..What the heck?
Bakit ko sila pinapansin?
"Hello!" The man waved while the other just stared while smiling.
Ugh! Thanks to them I'm not comfortable.
Umiwas ako nang tingin at mabilis ako naglakad palayo sa kanila.
I'm tired of them. Hangga't maari makauwi na dapat ako.
..
"Oh my love, can't you see that you're on my mind"
I put the spaghetti in the boiling water while singing and dancing whatever steps i could.
"I said, "Better late than never"
"Just don't make me wait forever"
I whisked eggs and added pecorino romano cheese until melted and black pepper in the bowl.
"Oh my love, can't you see yourself by my side?"
"Don't suppose we could convince your lover to change his mind"
I poured the egg mixture into the pasta and mixed, then I put the guanciale and mixed again.
"I was doing fine without you"
"Til I saw your face, now I can't erase"
The finishing touch. I added some leftover pecorino romano cheese and more black pepper.
"Giving in to all his bullsh*t"
"Is this what you want, is this who you are?"
I put it on my study table and put the hot chocolate on it too, of course we won't lose our favorite strawberry on the small plate.
Yes, Paborito namin ni De-
Never mind
"I was doing fine without you"
"'Til I saw your eyes turn away from mine"
Sumasayaw parin ako habang pilit ko inaabot ang libro ko, nasa pinaka tuktok ng bookshelf. Ang hirap pag 5'2 ka lang.
Mas ok ang word na "ka lang" rather than "lang ako"
Masyado na masakit 'yon.
"Oh, sweet darling, where he wants you"
"Said, "Come on Superman, say your stupid line"
I smiled widely when I got it and went back to the study table.
Balak ko ipagpatuloy ang aking nasimulan na kwento na patungkol sa..
"My spirit will follow you" I whispered and just stared at the dusty book in my hand.
Hindi ko pala nalinisan noon
Noong araw na 'yon..
Napahawak ako sa aking ulo nang bigla itong sumakit at pilit na wag maalala ang nakaraan.
Itong libro na 'to ang nagpapa-alala ng lahat na kung saan nagsimula ang pagtakas ko sa dilim at pagpasok ko sa panibagong pinto ng buhay ko.
Maraming pinto pero hindi ko alam kung saan nga ba ako nararapat pumasok. Aalis ba ako? is this really my door? Baka nagkakamali lang ako, Baka akala ko lang, B-Baka wala dito sa mga pinto.
May lugar ba talaga ako? kung saan dapat ako nararapat? o wala?
Maybe..i shouldn't have been born?
"Maybe my existence in this world is just ridiculous" I laughed softly
My eyes went to the fork and the strawberry. I took the fork and put the strawberry in the carbonara and took a bite of it.
Sarap!
Whatever, I'll just keep writing until i finish one of the things he asked me to do.
Even just here.. i can feel that he will be more happy that I finish the few chapters and that most people will read it and it will help them. Hope so?
No matter what happens, I will do everything, Kahit ito ay maging impossible, gagawin kong posible..For him, only for him.
He's my life, Every night everything that happened before, Nabubuhay pa rin siya sa puso ko habang ako ay nabubuhay.
"You live in the night but i live in your night."
-Vicianca Kie Landcor
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Bsjames
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