summer
"what billie? I don't have all day, if you don't have anything you want to say then I'm hanging up" I say rolling my eyes.
"amariana" she starts licking her lips and looks away from the camera, "come back home please" she begs making me roll my eyes.
"I'm not that stupid billie. I might have been too blind to not see through your bullshit but getting back with me is something you can only dream about" I tell her as I lay my hair.
"I know I have hurt you-" she starts making me roll my eyes, "but it's something that will never happen again, please summer" she begs.
"the house is so cold, I don't know how you did this but I'm sorry. it's lonely, the bed is cold, you're not around for any of the shit we would do together. I messed up, I know" she sighs.
"I miss you so much, you've only been gone for months and I feel like I'm going crazy. I know you deserve better but I can't let you move on, not when I know I could be better for you and be what you deserve" she says rubbing her face.
"but billie, you should have been what I deserve from the start, not now when you're ready to be and you know it felt when you would leave me alone in that house, you've never spent a full day and night since the day you moved in" I say fiddling with the brush.
"I get that you're sorry but i don't believe it, if you were sorry it wouldn't have happen over and over again. you have made me feel so shitty in a relationship with you and I didn't realize until we broke up how unhappy I was" I shrug.
"I loved you billie but it's not fair to me" I say shaking my head, she nods moving out of the camera to sniffle and wipe her tears as I keep my eyes glued to the brush in my hand.
"I do have questions for you though and you owe me to answer them with nothing but the truth" I say making her come back and nod.
"yeah sure" she sighs.
"how many times did you cheat?" I don't even know why I asked, it's only going to cause me more heartache than I already have.
"I don't know" she whispers out, "I don't fucking know and that's so messed up. I have nothing to hide anymore and nothing to save between us and I am sorry for what I am about to say but I don't remember a night I spent out of the house and I didn't sleep with another girl" she says with her tears running down.
I let out a deep breath trying to hold my tears as I ask my next question, "so.. when you were busy calling me and texting me 24/7 in the beginning of our relationship.. where you with any other girls at the moment?" I ask.
"no no no, god no" she says quickly, "you're all I could think about 24/7 and I was fr when I was telling all the thing I said, I was yours and it should have stayed at being just yours" she says wiping her tears and pressed her lips in a thin line.
"billie you- you have hurt me so much" I whisper out.
"I know, I'm sorry"
"sorry can't fix anything but I am going to ask you to lose my number" I say refusing to meet her eyes, she keeps quiet knowing she can't say no to that.
"and go to therapy billie. this is not normal nor healthy and I want you to heal yourself for your next girlfriend because I don't want you to treat another girl the way you have treated me" I tell her.
"okay" she nods, "I love you summer"
"mmh" I hum and hang up, I block her number and throw the phone aside to cry in my hands and naomi comes in rushing.
"I can't hug you but I've got you girl" she says as our pregnant bellies bump against each other, I laugh hugging her from the side.
yeah.
billie
"fuck" I mutter clinging onto my shirt as sobs shake through my body.
fuck.
